Trish, Shawn and Randy are getting to see Jesse at the hospital and are trying to deal with the reality of Jesse's accident and injuries. Through the bleak outlook though concerning Jesse's recovery, the situation brings Trish and Shawn yet closer and realizing that each other is all they need.
the foyer of Sacred Heart Medical Center Shawn wheeled right up to the
reception counter. The receptionist was an older lady and she had seemingly just
arrived to start her day as she was setting her purse down and turning on the
a friendly smile at the three early morning visitors she greeted them, “Good
Morning, how can I help you?”
Morning, I am here to see Jesse Callahan, I am his brother.”
am sorry sir but visiting hours don’t start before nine o’clock.”
explained, “We actually drove down over night from Washington. My brother was
in an accident down here. I think they are expecting us.”
that is different of course. I am sorry to hear about your brother. Let me look
him up for you right now. You said his name is Jesse Callahan?”
she typed into her computer and replied, “So Jesse is indeed in our Intensive
Care Unit. Only family members are allowed to see him at this time.”
that comment she glanced from Trish to Randy and Shawn explained quickly, “This
is my wife and our uncle.”
tried to not look too surprised at her sudden appointed title by Shawn.
receptionist didn’t question the relationship status and gave them the
directions to the ICU.
they were out of hearing range from the receptionist Trish looked over to Shawn
wheeling beside her, “Wife?”
just nodded with a smile, “Yeah, remember that while we are here.”
felt his hands sweaty of getting very nervous to see Jesse in a moment. Randy
also took quick strides toward the elevator they had to take to the second
the ICU they stood in front of closed doors. There was a bell on the wall.
pushed it and momentarily a voice asked, “Yes, can I help you?”
took over the answering, “My name is Shawn Callahan; I am here for my brother
please come in and if you could sign in at the front desk.”
door buzzed and opened automatically.
they walked through the door the sterile smell of the ICU met their noses. In
front of them was a brightly lit hallway. Located to the left of the hallway
were some patient rooms and the reception was right in front of them with a
woman looking toward them as they approached her.
Shawn wheeled up to the counter Trish could see for just a moment a curious
look on the face of the receptionist.
tried not to sound nervous as he greeted and introduced himself, Trish and Randy.
badge showed a photo and her name as “Andrea”.
Shawn’s introduction Andrea replied friendly, “We are very glad you made it
down here so quick. We have been expecting you. The police is also in contact
with us to stay updated on Jesse’s condition.”
made Shawn sign some papers, Trish and Randy also had to sign their names and
then she made a call on the department phone.
she was done she smiled, “Scott is Jesse’s nurse right now. He will be right
out and show you to Jesse’s room.”
could barely stand the waiting, Trish realized his tension and took his hand in
hers. He looked up at her and she smiled. Randy stood by nervously.
middle age male nurse approached them from the back of the hallway, smiling at
them, “Hi. Good Morning, I am Scott.”
badge was just like Andrea’s but in large letters stated “RN” under his name.
reached his hand out to Shawn first, “You must be Jesse’s brother.”
turned to Trish and Randy and they introduced themselves with handshakes. Trish
didn’t introduce herself as Shawn’s wife but merely said her name.
smiled and started to walk ahead of them talking while walking, “Please follow me.
You made it here quick. Didn’t you guys come down from Washington?”
felt his hands shaky as he pushed his rims, rolling behind Scott, answering, “Yes,
we left as soon as we could.”
heart beat in his neck, he was very nervous to see Jesse.
room was in the far left corner and coming up to it they heard beeping noises
come out of it and before Scott walked in he turned to all of them, “If you
could please use the hand sanitizer every time you go in and out of Jesse’s
used the hand sanitizer and followed Scott in, Shawn right behind him.
and Randy stayed back somewhat, letting Shawn wheel up to Jesse in the bed.
walked around to the other side of the bed and looked at Jesse and checked the
was hooked up to various IV lines, different medications running through tubing
into his veins. A tube was inserted in his mouth, secured to his face and mouth
leading to the ventilator helping Jesse breathe.
head was wrapped up with a thick bandage, only his hair on the top and on the
back of his neck sticking out some. He wore a cervical collar holding his head
still. His eyes were closed but showing dark bruises under them.
laid there with a bare chest. His bandaged right arm was held close to his
chest in a 90 degree angle in a type of brace, wrapping over both his shoulders
and over to his chest.
legs were covered with the sheet and a blanket over it and the blanket obviously
bulged some over his right leg.
were various bruises on his chest and some on his left arm. The right side of
Jesse’s body was showing noticeably more severe injuries than his left side.
had a very difficult time looking at Jesse in this state. Wheeling closer to
the bed he took off his hat and held it in his hands nervously.
stood back watching Shawn hang his head and she felt tears come up in her eyes.
She could see Shawn tremble, trying to keep his emotions under control. Randy gently
put his arm around Trish as they stood there.
turned around to face Shawn from the other side of the bed and explained softly,
“He is stable right now but we have to keep him sedated and intubated until the
swelling in his brain goes down. In addition to the head injury he also broke
his right collar bone, three ribs on his right side and one on his left. His
right leg sustained an open compound fracture of his femur shaft. Temporarily his
femur is in an external fixator; again, until the swelling of his leg goes down.
He suffered a torn ACL in his right knee and a hairline fracture of the right
tibia. He is going to have surgery on his leg.”
looked up at Scott and asked lowly, “What exactly happened to him?”
sighed and replied, “Well, apparently an SUV went through the construction
barrier and hit him going about 50 miles an hour, throwing Jesse through the
air and he hit the concrete with primarily the right side of his body. The
police can maybe tell you more, they will be here later this morning. His hard
hat saved his life, none of it was Jesse’s fault.”
took a deep breath and asked furthermore, “Will he be all right?”
nodded, answering lowly, “I think so. Dr. Peterson is our orthopedic, dealing
with Jesse’s broken bones and Dr. Runkel is the neurologist. They will be here as
well later on and can tell you more about Jesse’s injuries.”
just nodded and looked back at Jesse. Scott announced lowly, “You can stay as
long as you want right now. I will be right outside on the unit until about
seven thirty if you need me. Then the day shift nurse will take over. I will keep
checking in on Jesse in about 30 minutes.”
walked by Trish and Randy and smiled at them. Randy nodded a “Thank you” to
him. Trish saw Shawn’s body shake and she knew then he was crying. She looked
up at Randy and he nodded as to assure her to go over to be with Shawn.
walked over to the bed and stood next to Shawn, her hand on his shoulder,
looking at Jesse but not saying anything.
moved to the other side of the bed and looked at his nephews with a sorrowful
face. There was nothing they could do, but just look at Jesse and listen to the
machines around him and in the room. No one dared to lift the blanket to look
at his leg.
stood quietly next to Shawn as he silently cried.
were two chairs off to the side and Randy got one chair for himself and slid
the other one toward Trish, “Here you go Trish, sit down.”
Trish sat down and was now at Shawn’s eye level. With sad eyes he looked over
to her and said lowly, “I can’t lose him like this.”
felt her own tears running over her cheeks and replied softly, “You won’t lose
him Shawn. He will pull through this.”
was devastated to see Shawn and Jesse having to go through yet another rough patch.
He wanted to be able to do more and make sure he was taking care of the guys
but he felt helpless in the face of the tragedy, in his mind communicating with
his deceased brother that he would do anything in his power to make sure his
brothers sons would be all right.
all sat there silently for at least an hour, Trish felt her eyes get very heavy
and she felt the fatigue of driving all night overcome her. For a moment while
she sat there she dozed off and when her head fell forward she jerked it up in
Shawn quickly supported her with his arm around her, “Trish, are you all
looked at him with tired eyes, “Just very tired right now. I am sorry Shawn.”
pulled her to him some, “Sit on my lap and lay your head on my shoulder!”
moved over onto Shawn’s lap and she was able to rest her head on his shoulder and
right away closed her eyes again.
felt his own exhaustion and tiredness but looking at Jesse made it impossible
for him to fall asleep.
sat quietly on the other side of the bed and slouching down in his chair, his
legs stretched out under the bed, hands interlocked over his belly he also fell
eight the day shift nurse, Nickie, came into the room and informed Shawn, “The
police are outside the ICU and want to talk to you Shawn.”
was startled as Shawn shifted, “Yes, I will be right out.”
stroked the hair out of her face and whispered, “The police are outside.”
yawned and got up from Shawn’s lap. Randy also woke up from his nap and all
three made their way to the waiting area outside the ICU.
Shawn wheeled toward the officers one of them walked up, “Shawn Callahan?”
I am Lieutenant Mossner from the California state patrol. This here is Sergeant
reached his hand out to the officers and introduced Trish and Randy, who also
greeted the officers with handshakes.
were no other people in the waiting area and Lt. Mossner gestured toward
the chairs, “Why don’t we sit down over there?”
and Randy sat down and Shawn parked his wheelchair next to Trish and took her
sat down across from them and explained the situation.
far as what the police knew by now, the elderly driver of a Buick SUV suffered
from a heart attack and went through the construction barriers on Monday
morning hitting Jesse who was on his feet. The driver could not be saved. It
was not clear if the driver had suffered the heart attack before or after he
went through the barrier. Jesse was not to be charged for anything, he had been
wearing the proper safety gear according to protocol of his company and the
State Patrol safety precautions for construction workers on the Interstate.
did confirm that Jesse wearing a hard hat had saved his life from a serious
head injury that could have caused death. Lt. Mossner suggested looking for a
lawyer who could help them with everything that would be coming up concerning
just listened and eventually Lt. Mossner finished with, “We will get all your
contact information and will stay in touch with you about any changes and the
ongoing investigation. How long are you planning on staying here?”
had no clue, but he planned to stay there as long as he needed to, he had no
other place to be and so the only place for him to be was at his brother’s
bedside no matter how long that would take. Jesse had done the same for him
after the accident and there was no question he would do the same for his
brother in return.
Sgt. Wickham got all the contact information from Shawn the State Patrol left
placed her hand on Shawn’s knee, “Seems like they are doing everything they can.”
nodded and she kissed him softly on his forehead.
then turned to Shawn, “So, should I look for a hotel?”
nodded, “Yeah, unless the hospital has a place to stay for us.”
hospital didn’t have accommodations for them and Randy looked around on his
phone for hotels in the area. Eventually Randy found a hotel with wheelchair
accessibility, about two miles from the hospital and not too pricey. After a
moment of discussing they decided to get two rooms.
in the ICU Dr. Peterson showed up around noon. As Dr. Peterson explained the
injuries, he eventually pulled the blanket back and they could see Jesse’s leg
badly bruised, broken skin and still some bloody streaks blended with the brown
color of the Iodine solution. The broken femur shaft bone was held together by
the steel frame of the external fixator, the thin steel rods inserted into
Jesse’s leg, bracing the bone on the inside. The leg was swollen in some areas
making it look oddly shaped and like it didn’t even belong to Jesse’s athletic
body. A soft brace supported the knee and tibia. Jesse was on strong pain
medication that numbed his leg and didn’t let him feel any of the excruciating pain
of his badly injured leg.
looked at the leg and mumbled to himself, “Fuck!”
one said anything for a moment until he asked Dr. Peterson, “So how long will
all this take?”
Peterson sighed and looked very serious, “At least six to eight months.”
Shawn could think of at that moment was how they would manage without Jesse’s
income. He really didn’t have a clue and it scared him.
Peterson explained some more about the leg injury, then assured them that the
collar bone won’t be too long to heal and also his ribs would be o.k., Jesse
just had to stay immobilized in bed.
“Jesse is lucky that none of his broken ribs punctured his lungs.”
Peterson could see the fear in Shawn’s face, “Your brother will be all right,
he will make it through this.”
Dr. Peterson had left Shawn looked over at his uncle and said lowly, “How the
fuck are we going to live?”
answered with his hand on Shawn’s shoulder, “We made it through your accident;
we will make it through this. Don’t worry about the money right now Shawn.”
after Dr. Peterson the Neurologist Dr. Runkel showed up and after a brief
friendly introduction the doctor looked at Jesse for a moment and then sat down
on one of the chairs to be at eye level with Shawn, “So Jesse suffered a good
blow to the head but fortunately we did not have a skull fracture and no
bleeding of the brain. He is dealing with some slight swelling of the brain and
I had to drill a hole in the skull to relieve the pressure. We sedated him and
put him on a ventilator to not cause him any stress for the next 48 to 72 hours
at least. An injury like his needs lots of rest and if he would be conscious it
could cause complications.”
long will he be kept in a coma?”
will see what the next couple of days will bring and then decide on a day to
looked over at Jesse, then back at the doctor, “Could there be any issues
Runkel didn’t answer right away but thought for a moment, then replied, “Well,
hopefully there won’t be any post traumatic effects of the head injury but we
won’t know until later when Jesse is recovering.”
nodded and it was difficult for him to think of something happening to Jesse
because of the head injury. Jesse didn’t deserve any of this. He was always the
stronger one of the two and Shawn couldn’t imagine having to take care of Jesse
in some way or another. He was barely capable of taking care of himself, how
would he take care of Jesse? Panic inside of him tried to surface and he felt
his hands tremble and sweaty but pulled it together until Dr. Runkel was done
and had left.
looked over to Trish and she could see the fear in his eyes. She went over to
him and leaned down to hug him tightly, then she climbed onto to his lap. Randy
bit his lip as he watched Shawn clinging on to Trish.
with a trembling voice, “I don’t know what we are going to do. Jesse is…I need
him…I can’t lose him.”
let her tears flow silently, holding Shawn and trying to be there for him. She
was very worried about Jesse as well.
they realized they couldn’t do much for Jesse at this point, they finally took
off to the hotel at around four, picking up an early dinner on their way.
the motel they checked into their rooms and even though it wasn’t anything special,
it was somewhat accessible for Shawn and even had a shower chair in the tub,
lower towel handles, grab bars and also a frame around the toilet to hold on
for him. One of the two Queen Size beds was lower to the ground than the other.
The room seemed more spacious than a regular hotel room. Shawn was able to
wheel comfortably into it and around in the room. There was enough room between
the beds for him to wheel up to either side of the bed. The bathroom sink counter also was accessible for him to wheel under it with his chair.
room was a couple of doors down the hallway from theirs. He went to his room
and told them he would be right back to eat dinner with them.
sat down on the lower bed, Shawn wheeling right up to her. He took her hands
into his and they looked at each other for moment. He did realize how Trish
looked tired and her eyes were shiny and her make-up was smeared some.
smiled at him, “Are you all right?”
and replied lowly, “Thanks for coming down here too. I kind of can’t believe it
all. It seems like a bad dream.”
know, it does….”
eight o’clock Trish was already in bed when Shawn came wheeling out from the
bathroom with only a towel over his lap. From in between his thighs he pulled
out a pair of incontinence briefs and his shorts and threw them on the bed
before he transferred onto it. Shawn avoided Trish’s eyes as he transferred and
she realized his insecurity and tried not to stare at him too much as he made
his way into the bed.
was glad to be there with him but she didn’t really know how all this was going
to work out. She had called out from work for the day and the next day, but she
knew she couldn’t stay in Eugene for too long. She would have to go back home
and go back to work but she tried not to worry about it too much yet.
scrambled into the bed and just as he grabbed the briefs to slip them on under
the blanket, Trish took them from his hand, “Here I will help you get them on.”
was reluctant to let her help him again and as Trish sensed it, she said
softly, “Shawn, I have seen you naked, remember?”
did indeed remember when Trish first helped him at home after his ordeal with
severe spasms and how she had helped him then. Then he didn’t know yet what it
was about her though, the way she actually felt about his broken body, the way
his body possibly did things to her that he still couldn’t grasp all the way.
way he felt about his own body though was the problem and he was hesitant for a
split moment, still feeling insecure about these things and Trish somehow being
involved in his issues.
stroked her hand over his arm, “Please Shawn.”
nodded and replied barely audible, “O.K.”
some difficulties he scooted his body down into the bed, throwing his legs down,
adjusting them somewhat straight and finally laying flat on his back.
moved the blanket over and gently pulled the incontinence briefs over Shawn’s thin
legs. Shawn was staring at the ceiling and only threw quick glances at Trish
who was as always focused and almost had a slight smile on her face helping him
with the task. Once the softly padded briefs were on him she let her hands
travel down his legs again, over his bony thighs and knees, then his shins
covered with the soft fluff of dark hair. Shawn glanced down to her and watched
her for a moment until she looked up and met his eyes with a smile.
he also had his shorts on over the incontinence briefs and Trish crawled up
next to him, pulled the blanket over them again and cradled herself into his
arm and her head resting on his chest and whispered, "Thank you!”
asked lowly and with a slight tremble, “So for women like you all this stuff I
am dealing with when it comes to bodily fluids is not really an issue?”
pushed herself up on her elbow and looked at Shawn, explaining lowly, “No, for me
personally it is not an issue. I actually think it is kind of hot. I like to
make sure you are all right during the night. I mean I don’t want you to be
waking up in a wet mess and maybe risk getting sick or something. I have no
problem with you wearing these briefs Shawn.”
shook his head a little, “I never thought that this could be hot to anyone…dealing
with this stuff isn’t easy you know and it kind of takes a lot of that dignity
away that any man would want to try to keep…I just can’t imagine that some
women are into this stuff.”
was tired but she wanted to take advantage of the moment and explain to Shawn
if he was interested, “Well, I am one of the women who are into this stuff. It
is part of who you are and I love everything about you, including your disability.
It is not an issue for me, it turns me on Shawn to see you in your everyday
life being paraplegic. I love to see you transfer, I love to see you spin your
rims and move your body in the chair. I love seeing the quick little lifts you
do in your wheelchair to prevent pressure sores. I go crazy seeing you do a
wheelie Shawn. I love looking at your legs aligned perfectly with your feet on
the foot rest. I love seeing your muscular arms work when you push your chair
and believe it or not, I kind of think of you cathing as a very hot thing. I
can’t wait until you let me see it. I love everything about you Shawn. You are
a dream come true for me. I never meant any harm and I hope you will
understand…I love you so very much.”
pulled her close to him and kissed her lips, then looked at her again, “I
talked to some of the guys on my message boards…and they kind of opened my eyes
to the whole devotee thing. I had no idea, Trish…I didn’t know there was
something like that and that there were women who were into guys with
disabilities. Most people I talked to kind of assured me that it was all good
and that it was the best thing that could have happened to them, finding out
about devotees. Some of the guys have devotee girlfriends or even wives.”
smiled, “I am so glad you came back to me. I was so scared to lose you over
this. I was always scared you wouldn’t understand, that is why I couldn’t tell
you. I am sorry I waited too long Shawn until you found out by coincidence.”
it is behind us now. I love you so much Trish and I am glad that it is this way
because I know now and I think it will be a good thing for us. I don’t ever
want to have any secrets in our relationship.”
kissed a very long time until Trish rested her head on Shawn’s chest again, letting her fingers stroke over it,
“Are you going to be all right with Jesse’s situation?”
took a deep breath, “I am scared but I am trying to keep it together for him.
It is not going to help if I break down. I need to be strong for him. Jesse
doesn’t deserve any of this, he is one of the best guys I have ever known.
Yeah, we have our differences and life has been kind of rough for us but Jesse
is such a strong guy, he always kept going and kept staying positive. Without
him I wouldn’t have made it. He is the best brother anyone can wish for, I love
him so much and I need him to be around for me. I want him to see that I am
going to get back on track, I am going back to school or trying to find a job
and I want you to be by my side for all of it and I know Jesse likes you a
that they looked at each other for a moment, thinking about what had happened
weeks ago with Trish coming into their life and Trish confirmed softly, “You
were the one I wanted from the beginning Shawn.”
kept his dark eyes on her for a moment, then gently pushed Trish down onto the
pillow and leaning over her he pressed his lips onto hers for a long kiss. Trish
was running her hand through his hair and over his back, feeling Shawn’s
shoulder blades and feeling the movement of his muscles while he kissed her
hard and demanding.
fatigue finally overcame them, Trish fell asleep in Shawn’s arms and didn’t
move all night.