Trish and Shawn find Jesse in Rehab. Jesse can't ignore that he feels more for Kristy and he is trying to adjust to the new situation and is somewhat worried about getting on with the intensive part of Physical Therapy.
Trish and Shawn came that afternoon they were surprised that Jesse was gone and
the room was empty.
outside in the hallway nurse Meghan intercepted them, “He is gone…”
into two surprised faces she explained further, “Jesse was transferred to
Inpatient Rehab today.”
told them where they could find Jesse now and how to get there.
minutes later Trish and Shawn came up to the nurse’s station at Inpatient Rehab.
am looking for my brother Jesse Callahan.”
nurse behind the desk answered, “Oh yes, Jesse is our new arrival today. He is
down the hall in F-6a.”
pointed them in the right direction and Shawn thanked her and they headed
toward Jesse’s new room.
it they found Jesse sitting up in his bed. He was by himself in the room but
there was space for another patient with an empty and fresh bed, separated by just
was happy to see Trish and Shawn, “Hey guys! I moved.”
wheeled up to his bed and fist bumped him, “I see that. You just snuck away
kissed Jesse on the cheek and looked around in the room, “Well, hopefully you
won’t really have to share your room with anyone anytime soon.”
hope so too but oh well. I am here now.”
got comfortable next to Jesse’s bed and started talking about the new
four thirty Kristy showed up in the room. Jesse had not seen her since the
morning visit in his former room.
the past couple of days they had bonded and Jesse couldn’t ignore anymore that
he felt a lot more for Kristy than just her being his Physical Therapist. He
had not confessed to Kristy about his feelings out of fear it would change their
friendship and also put Kristy’s job at risk. Jesse also had not opened up to
Shawn about the feelings he harbored for Kristy other than being friends and so
far he had kept their relationship on a professional level.
was always in a good mood, she made him feel better and motivated him to keep
going. She had been pushing for Jesse to get transferred into Rehab but it had
been a wait because the Rehab unit had been full up until that day. There had
even been talks about transferring Jesse to another local hospital and its
Rehab unit. Kristy had not allowed that and had been working with him on his
upper body strength and getting some movement back in his leg.
had been fitted for a knee brace to help him with his torn ACL. He was still on
oral pain medication but the IV’s had been taken off. The only thing was still
the Foley catheter and now being in Rehab that would hopefully come out soon.
had brought with her a walker and a pair of underarm crutches, “Hello
smiled at Jesse, “Hey my friend…I have some presents for you.”
greeted Shawn and Trish and then sat on the edge of Jesse’s bed, “I am glad you
are finally over here now. This is my kingdom, the hallowed halls of Rehab.”
face just lit up in Kristy’s presence as he kept his eyes on her closely.
glanced at the devices next to his bed and Kristy explained, “Doctor Strickland
is getting tough on you. No more lazy days. He ordered progressive PT starting
tomorrow. I will be in here around nine and we will try to get you standing up.”
didn’t say anything and Kristy turned serious, “Don’t worry o.k. We will take
it easy. You don’t have to run around in this room tomorrow. I just want to get
you up for a few minutes.”
nodded but Shawn could see his nervousness at the outlook for the next day.
to sound encouraging, “This is a good thing Jesse. It is good that they get you
chimed in, “Shawn is right Jesse. I am so excited for you as well.”
managed a weak smile but Kristy was sensitive enough to recognize his
insecurity, “Don’t worry about tomorrow
Jesse, but I kind of need you to jump on that band wagon with me though. I need
your enthusiasm and energy to help us get started. I am sure you can do it. We
have been working hard already and you are moving your leg. It is time we get
more serious now.”
to the bathroom she then asked with a grin, “Do you see this bathroom?”
nodded and Kristy then asked another question, “Do you want to pee into a
toilet again instead of through the Foley?”
looked down embarrassed but smiling, managing a small nod and Kristy continued,
“I thought so. Think about that when we get started tomorrow. The toilet is
your goal. I will get you into that bathroom and you will pee into the toilet
by next week the same time.”
had to laugh about Kristy’s approach but he liked her sense of humor and he
jumped on her so called band wagon right then, “Hell yeah, to pee into a toilet
is your goal Jesse.”
then couldn’t help to laugh a little and Trish joined in.
stood up and smiled at Shawn, “Thanks Shawn for helping me out here.”
then turned to Jesse, “Well Jesse, welcome again to Rehab. I assure you it will
be a very good thing. I am very excited to see you and work with you. I have to
get going now though, I am off for today and I will see you tomorrow bright and
kept his eyes on her, “Thanks Kristy, I will see you tomorrow.”
quick smile to Jesse and she told them Good Bye and left the room.
let his head fall back on the pillow and sighed.
wheeled up the bed, “You know what my goal was in rehab?”
turned his head toward him, “What?”
goal was to get rid of the fucking Foley too and get myself into the bathroom
to get my routine down for straight cathing. To be able to decide when I want
to pee through this tube into the toilet and not have pee just flow into a
fucking leg bag. I hated it. I didn’t want that. I wanted to be in charge of my
peeing. Even though I didn’t know when I had to, I wanted to get my bladder
under my control.”
was almost ashamed of himself of being worried about starting the more
intensive part of physical therapy because at the end of his therapy he would
be walking again, and he would be able to use the bathroom unlike Shawn who had
started rehab in the knowledge of not walking again and never knew when he had
to use the bathroom.
recalled how depressed Shawn was on some days during his rehab. Shawn hated
being there, he wanted to get home and he didn’t want to learn how to transfer
in and out of his wheelchair, transfer from the floor into his wheelchair or
move his legs with his hands for range of motion exercises. There were days
when he didn’t want to talk about managing his bowels and his urination
procedures. Sometimes he was too tired and exhausted to put on his clothes the
best way or deal with spasms to his advantage. Shawn hated the whole rehab time
and Jesse was angry with him a lot for seemingly being ungrateful to all the
therapists trying to teach and help him live with his disability.
he looked at Shawn who still had his eyes on him, dark and knowingly, almost as
he was reading Jesse’s mind.
said lowly, “Then when I finally knew the time line of when and how often to cath
and not pee myself anymore I felt like a king Jesse.”
heard the tension in Shawn’s voice and he knew it was a kind of reprimanding
him and reminding him of where he was standing with his rehab process.
forcefully pushed his rims back and wheeled away from the bed and next to Trish
again. Trish had only listened but she had also heard the tension in Shawn’s
a moment they didn’t say anything as the unspoken tension hung over them.
tried to apologize with a trembling voice, “I am sorry Shawn…I know I am acting
like an idiot. I will be all right and I will do everything they ask me to do
and I will work hard to stand and walk and whatever else and yes, I want to pee
into a toilet again. My situation is a joke and I am sorry I am making a big
deal out of it.”
looked up at him and said lowly, “Your situation is not a joke but it is
different and you will be all right coming out of this. I know you can do all
this stuff. You are not like me. I know you will follow orders and do whatever
Kristy tells you to do and I know you will try your hardest and at the end of
it all you will walk out of here and that is all I want, that is what we all
want. You will be all right, Jesse.”
nodded in agreement and she stood up and walked over to Jesse and took his hand
watched with dark eyes from under his bangs as she said to Jesse, “You will do
great Jesse and you will be on your feet sooner than you know it. Kristy seems
nice and upbeat, she is perfect for this.”
couldn’t help that the small interactions Trish and Jesse had on a daily basis
always gnawed on him deep inside but he really didn’t want them to know that it
sometimes worried him.
watched them smile at each other when Jesse said lowly, “I really like Kristy
and in a way I guess I am just embarrassed at her going to see my clumsy
attempts to do all this stuff.”
shifted and sat up straighter at hearing his brother’s confession.
turned around to Shawn and met his eyes as he wheeled closer again, asking, “What do you mean you like Kristy? Like more
than just friends?”
nodded and explained lowly, “I guess, I do like her more than a friend. I think
she is hot and she…I don’t know, I just kind of wish we wouldn’t have met in
this situation. I don’t want to be like this in front of her. I am glad she is my therapist but somehow I
wish it wouldn’t be her.”
asked, “Do you think she likes you too, like not only as her patient?”
remarked, “Welcome to my world.”
really didn’t know what advice to give Jesse but he knew very well how Jesse
felt and when he didn’t say anything Trish took the word, “Jesse, don’t be embarrassed.
Just be yourself and try not to be something you are not. You are recovering
from a severe injury and it will take some time for you to be well and Kristy
knows that. Don’t try to prove to her that you are stronger than what you are
right now. She seems super nice and maybe down the road you can get closer to
her, just right now keep it to yourself.”
know I have to keep it professional and I will. We will see how it all goes and
just go with the flow.”
night Trish was already in bed when Shawn came wheeling into the room and she
watched him as he pulled up to the bed, lifted himself off his seat, and
pushed over onto the bed, his legs following as he pulled his body up on the
bed, then adjusted his legs on the bed and laid down next to Trish on the
snuggled up close and Trish rested her head on his chest and hearing his heart
beat and feeling his heat radiate into her they laid there for a few moments,
quiet and close.
Trish then asked lowly, “Are you jealous at Jesse?”
had not expected a question like that but Trish was sensitive enough to his moods
now that she had witnessed quite a few of them already.
first he didn’t say anything and Trish added, “You seemed a bit off today with
Jesse in rehab now.”
took a deep breath, “You know me so well.”
sat up and looked at Shawn with her head on her hand, elbow on the bed.
eyes were dark and lovingly she stroked a few strands of hair from his
forehead, “You are jealous!”
pressed his lips together and thought for a moment, then answered lowly, “I hate
myself for it. I should be happy for him.”
don’t have to hate yourself but yes, you should be happy for him and I know it
is super difficult for you.”
played with Trish’s hair falling down on his chest and replied lowly, “He will
go through rehab and be o.k. He will walk out of there and everything will be
you are thinking about your time in rehab and that you didn’t walk out of there?”
I didn’t. Jesse doesn’t have a reason to be all complicated because of Kristy
or having her as a therapist. He will recover and be good to go and probably
end up getting the girl anyways.”
you are not making sense. I want you to remember what you want for Jesse and
how much you care for him. Every situation for every person is different and
people feel different in different situations. Jesse is worried and he has been
through a lot lately just like you have been through a lot after your accident.
Your situation may have been worse but in the end the situation Jesse is in
right now is hard for him too and you need to respect that. And if he really
likes Kristy I for one can see how he is worried about that and how it makes
things harder for him. We need to be there for him no matter what and we need
to support him and take his worries seriously.”
nodded, “I know. You are right.”
smiled, “And guess what: you ended up getting the girl too. This girl.”
pulled her down to his face and said lowly, “I sure did. I love you so much.”
love you Shawn and it doesn’t matter that you didn’t walk out of rehab on your
legs because that is one of the many things I adore you for.”
pulled her closer and kissed her hard and demanding, somehow feeling the frustrations
that had bothered him during the day and now letting them out in kissing Trish forcefully.
kissed and held each other and when they let go Shawn said softly, “Thanks for setting
me straight and getting on to me for being jealous at my brother.”
smiled at her and Trish laughed, “Anytime…”
she added warmly, “I like Kristy and it would be so cool if she and Jesse could
become friends beyond the hospital.”
would be very cool.”