Another day filled with situations for Trish and Shawn to deal with bringing them closer and changing their interactions with each other. The day starts out good and Trish is happy that Shawn seems to come around some and agrees to hang out with her, making them both realize that things could be good between them until the day puts them to the test once again.
woke up to her alarm at eight o’clock, pushed the snooze button and turned back
over, continuing her slumber. After tossing and turning and pushing snooze two
more times she finally forced herself to get up. Everything was still quiet in
the house. She went to the bathroom and then put some coffee on. There was no
sound coming from Shawn’s bedroom or bathroom.
spasms had bothered Shawn all night but he was able to manage without taking
his Baclofen though his sleep had been restless. Around five in the morning the
spasms had finally subsided all the way and he had fallen into a deeper sleep.
a coffee mug in between her hands Trish walked over to the living room scanning
the framed pictures on a shelf. In one of the photos Jesse and Shawn were sitting
on the tailgate of a truck, laughing into the camera. Another picture showed them
and a man on a wooden bench seemingly on the porch of a house. She realized the
similarity of their features and knew it must have been their dad.
were photos with other people and in all of them Shawn was on his legs or sitting
but never in his wheelchair. All the pictures were obviously from before Shawn’s
accident. Jesse smiled in all of the photos, Shawn looked more serious in most
taken portrait was only of their father, he had been an attractive man and the
photo must have been taken before he had the stroke. Trish was able to identify
their mother in some older pictures when Shawn and Jesse were still young boys.
Jesse looked a lot like his mother, she was smiling and laughing in the pictures,
seemingly happy with her boys by her side.
eyes stayed on an apparently newer picture of Shawn sitting on a rock by a
river fishing and looking around at the camera. It must have been before the
accident as well because his legs looked like they filled out his jeans
and they were positioned steady on the rock he was sitting on, work boots on
his feet. He actually smiled into the camera. Even when Shawn was not
paraplegic yet Trish would have found him to be attractive nonetheless.
thought about how exactly the guy in that picture was right there with her in
the house, they were so close but yet so far apart. She wanted him so badly but
she was unsure how to get closer to him.
in the kitchen she poured herself some more coffee and turned on her computer
to check her email and group messages. On her devotee message board she had written
about her “job” as Shawn’s personal assistant and she had described him and the
girls in her group were very interested in how everything was going. She had
some private messages, skimmed through them and answered them.
checked the movie schedule of the local theater, planning on maybe going to a
movie later with Shawn if he was up for it. Then again she also had to finish
some work for her online classes so a day at home would have been beneficial. The
thought of maybe hanging out with Shawn though was a lot more appealing to her
than studying. Shawn had been secluded too long and she really wanted to get to
know him better outside of the house. She would have to see how he felt when he
would wake up.
ended up reading through some of her class projects and time slipped away when all
the sudden she was startled by Shawn in the living room wheeling into the
kitchen, “Good Morning Trish!” Trish looked up in surprise.
was only in his lounge pants, no shirt and looking like he had just woke up. Trish
herself was still in her sleep clothes and glanced at her computer clock
was already eleven thirty and she looked over at Shawn again, “Hey Shawn, Good
Morning…I didn’t realize it was almost noon, I got caught up in some of my
nodded and wheeled up to the table, “Yeah, I kind of slept in too…my night was
a bit rough.”
Trish got up Shawn couldn’t help glance at her naked, perfect legs and he
swallowed at the thought of running his hand over her soft skin.
you O.K. now? Why didn’t you wake me up?”
shrugged his shoulders, “There’s nothing you could have done about it.”
picked up the coffee pot, “You want some coffee?”
shook his head.
looked at her with dark eyes and she felt like he was checking her out, “Not
yet. First I will take a shower and stuff.”
replied nervously, “Yeah, I guess I should do that too! Do you need me to help
you with anything?”
almost had to smile a little bit because his mind had drifted off into a
different world with him and Trish in it.
shook his head quickly, “No thanks! I am good.”
didn’t sound right at all. He did need her, he needed her more than she knew
but he also knew that there would never be anything going on between them. He
put his hands to his rims again, turned himself around and rolled toward the
back hallway again. Looking after Shawn wheeling away Trish realized how weak
her knees felt when she headed toward her own bathroom.
was done before Shawn and sat at the kitchen table again, doing some more
school work when he came wheeling up at almost one o’clock, looking very good. Dressed
in jeans and a T-Shirt, sock footed in his wheelchair, his hair somewhat tamed with some gel
on his head, he smiled at Trish with his dark eyes as he joined her at the
asked him, “Are you hungry?”
got up, “Here, I will get you some coffee.”
glanced at her computer curiously, “What are you doing on there?”
looked from her computer to Shawn, “Just college stuff.”
what kind of college stuff?”
preparing Shawn some food she explained to him about her online classes for the Physical Therapy program and he
a few moments Trish set a plate with sausages, scrambled eggs, and toast in
front of him.
glanced up, “Thanks for the lunch!”
welcome! It is kind of breakfast for lunch I guess…”
started eating while she turned back to her computer and eventually he asked
in between bites, “So why physical therapy?”
was caught off guard and when she looked at him his eyes were directly on her,
dark and intimidating.
thought for a moment about her answer, “I just like helping people…I thought
about nursing but kind of changed my mind that I’d rather be there for people
after their surgeries, accidents or whatever, helping them adapt or
rehabilitate to be able to live their lives as independent as possible.”
mentioned dryly, “Physical therapy did nothing for me.”
sighed and nodded, “Well, I know you quit going, Jesse told me.”
took another bite and Trish asked seriously, “Why did you quit?”
shrugged his shoulders, “Physical Therapy in my case was a waste of time. I
mean this here…” he gestured at his legs, “…is not going away. I don’t know of
any para or quad walking out of Physical Therapy on their legs.”
looked down for a moment, then up at him again, “I saw leg braces in your room,
what about those?”
shook his head, “Those bulky, ugly as hell things…no f…” he stopped himself
from saying the F-Word, “…no way!”
looked at him deeply, “I think you should give them a try…I really believe you
could benefit from wearing them sometimes.”
set his fork down and leaned back in his wheelchair, “How do you think I would
benefit from them?”
was scanning her curiously and Trish stammered nervously, “Well, it helps the
circulation in your legs and your muscles would get used in a way you don’t use
looked down and said softly, “I could help you with it. I don’t think they are
ugly…I don’t think your wheelchair is ugly either.”
had kept his eyes on her, listening and taking in her words.
she looked up their eyes met and Shawn asked with slight sarcasm, “You don’t
shook her head but didn’t say anything else and looked away again. He realized
how she seemed nervous and he was trying to figure out why and what it was
about her. Usually he was the nervous one, now it was just the opposite. He had
the feeling that for some reason he had the upper hand in this conversation
asking her directly about the Physical Therapy topic.
kept on, “So you would help me with the braces then?”
looked up quickly and he saw a kind of excitement in her eyes when she nodded
slightly, “Yes, I would love to.”
looked at her with his head tilted, “O.K. once I get my cast off and even if it
is after Jesse gets back you can come out and help me with my braces then?”
the excitement seemed to change into fear as she stuttered, “After Jesse gets
He tried to read her expression, “They said I should get into the braces about
three times a week and stand or walk a bit if I can. I haven’t done it at all.
You can help me with them. Look at it as some practical experience for your
degree. Do we have a deal?”
and said softly, “Yes, I guess we have a deal.”
imagined herself helping Shawn with his braces and she couldn’t even picture
it, especially with Jesse back. She really didn’t plan to still be around once
Jesse got back but Shawn’s determination and very sexy smile when he had said
these things made her crumble at his suggestion.
finished a bite, “What is the plan for today?”
don’t know…I thought we could maybe catch a movie or go to the mall or
something…only if you wanted to of course. I don’t know! Just to get out again.”
Trish’s relief Shawn didn’t say anything else anymore about the braces and
replied, “I guess we could go to a movie…I haven’t been in forever…do you know
what is playing?”
brought up the movie schedule and they scanned through it, Shawn was leaning
over some and she could smell his cologne.
a moment they decided on “Fast and Furious” which would be playing at four in the
thirty they were on the road to town. Trish seemed hesitant to push the gas
pedal, she didn’t want to make Shawn mad again. He didn’t say anything to her
but he was aware of her hesitation.
Trish looked over and asked carefully, “Do you want to drive again?”
kept his eyes on the road ahead, “Maybe one day…we don’t have the money for a
car or truck with hand controls or having one modified for me at the moment.”
nodded but didn’t say anything. At the theater Trish found a parking spot in
the disabled parking area, placed the blue plaque with the wheelchair image on
the mirror and got out to get Shawn’s wheelchair while he opened the door. She
pushed the chair up to the car next to Shawn and stepped over to the side to give
him room to transfer.
watched him the whole time and he glanced at her for just a moment but didn’t
say anything. He was busy positioning himself in his chair and lifting his feet
onto the foot rest. When he was done he rolled away from the car to shut the
door and Trish locked the car with her remote key. Shawn put his hands on his
rims and started wheeling toward the main entrance.
felt good walking beside him up to the cashier window. Just when she was going
to pull out her wallet to pay for her ticket Shawn touched her hand slightly
and pushed it down and their eyes met when he said with a surprised smile, “Trish,
I got it!”
stepped back to let him roll up to the cashier window. Shawn bought the tickets
and handed them to Trish so he could put his hands on his rims again and they
he asked her, “You want some popcorn and a drink?”
looked over at him, “Only if you are getting any?”
nodded, “I am. Let’s get in line then!”
line wasn’t very long and when they got up to the counter Shawn ordered their
drinks and a large bucket of popcorn. Trish watched him as he paid, took the
drinks, placed one of the cups in between his thighs and handed one to Trish
with a smile.
felt such utter content and happiness with the whole situation of being with
joked with the young girl behind the counter when he paid and Trish saw the
girl’s cheeks blushing and she was smiling big at Shawn. Trish was proud to be
the one with him and with every moment she felt more drawn to him.
found the showroom and as they came inside Shawn looked around for a moment,
trying to figure out the seating arrangement for Trish and him. The area right
in front of the main aisle had handicapped signs all along the row of seats and
open areas next to them, where one or two wheelchairs could be parked
comfortably. Shawn wheeled slowly up to
one of the open spots with a comfy seat to the right of it and glanced at Trish, “Is
this good for you?”
often had Trish wished to be sitting in exactly this seat with a guy exactly
like Shawn next to her. She couldn’t believe her fate and she felt the eyes of
the few other afternoon movie goers on them as they seated themselves.
swiftly positioned his chair right next to the padded seat Trish sat in. She
watched him put his break on and her heart was pounding quickly.
they sat, Shawn leaned over to her and said lowly, “I haven’t been in a theater
since before the accident.”
gave him a wide eyed smile, “Well, I guess it’s time to change that now.”
paused and then added softly, “I am really glad you decided to come.”
nodded and when he looked over at her, his eyes were looking right into hers,
with me to a movie and paying and all…even though you make me share the popcorn
laughed softly and he smiled quietly and he looked so good in the dimness of
the theater. Movie previews flickered across the large screen, advertisement
and eventually the movie started. They stayed mostly quiet through the movie,
sharing the popcorn and every once in a while their fingers touched.
joked when he kept his hand in the popcorn bucket blocking Trish’s attempt to get
her fingers in and she looked at him questioningly and whispered, “Excuse me
acted surprised, “What is it?”
looked at his hand, softly cleared her throat and he smiled again, “Oh sorry,
my hand fell asleep in there.”
smiled and jokingly slapped his fingers softly.
He moved his fingers with a small laugh.
turned their attention to the movie again. After a while Trish looked over at
Shawn and was surprised to find him staring at her and when she realized he
looked away quickly. During the movie Shawn shifted slightly a few times,
pushing himself up a little to get some relief from sitting and Trish was so
drawn to him.
felt good and even though he had worried during the night that the spasms would
bother him now he was relieved to not have experienced any spasms during the
day so far. He wouldn’t have wanted to leave the house if the spasms would have
stuck around. Now he felt good being out at the movie with Trish.
glanced at her on a few occasions and he felt very lucky. She was beautiful,
she was fun and he wished so much there could be more between them. There was
something about the way she acted so natural around him and it seemed like his
being paraplegic didn’t bother her at all. He did catch her glimpse at him a
few times when she thought he didn’t know, like when he transferred from the
car on the parking lot she had actually watched him and made him slightly
nervous because her eyes seemed so alert on him. When he had met her eyes
then she hadn’t looked away but just smiled at him. In a way it felt almost
like she was checking him out but he threw that thought out quickly. When he
shifted his body weight a few times during the movie he didn’t miss her glances
at him either.
a moment he was lost in thoughts, thinking about if he would ever have a
girlfriend again or if he would always stay in the friend zone. He had not been
in the friend zone with girls a whole lot in his life before the accident. He
looked over at her and she looked at him again in exactly that moment, they
smiled at each other and then focused back on the movie again.
the movie was over they came out into the carpeted hallway and Trish threw away
their trash. She walked along side Shawn who was busy dodging people coming out
of the various showrooms. The theater was busier now with the evening shows about to
start. Shawn disappeared into the bathroom and Trish followed his example and
went to the bathroom as well.
it was sunny and warm still, the sun still high for six o’clock in the evening.
turned to Shawn, “Are you ready to go back home?”
looked up at her, “Actually I thought we could maybe go eat somewhere if you
sounds good, I am a little hungry for some real food. The popcorn was just a
too. Let’s go eat! What do you feel like?”
thought for a moment, “It doesn’t matter to me, I eat anything. How about
replied, “Yeah, let’s do it. Does the Chinese buffet sound good to you?”
I love their Sushi bar.”
they approached the car, Trish held out her key and unlocked the car. Shawn wheeled
up to his side, transferred and folded his chair up so Trish could put it in
the trunk. Just when Shawn had closed the car door and positioned his legs he
felt his left leg tremble with his hand on it. He didn’t say anything when
Trish got in but kept his hand on his leg to feel for more spasms. The
trembling went on and suddenly his leg started shaking quickly. With his hand
Shawn could feel his thigh bulging in a cramp under his jeans.
what is it?”
spasm became more severe and travelled from his calf up into his hips, causing
Shawn to tense up in his trunk, “Just some spasms.”
his body he tried to dodge the tension. He didn’t actually feel any severe
pain, but he only experienced the cramping of his atrophied muscles and his
legs usually acting like they had a life of their own. Moving around was
difficult with spasms, they usually came in bouts of severe cramps and his body
usually just surrendering to them and Shawn hoping they would quickly take
their course and subside.
held his leg down with another spasm coming on and clenched his teeth, “Shit!”
suggested, “We can go home Shawn. I can cook us something at home.”
bit his lip and his expression was tense, “No, maybe it will go away in a
“You think so?”
forced a smile under the trembling of his body, “Not sure, but we can try to
wait it out…” His voiced faded under another spasm.
looked at him worried, “You still want to go to the restaurant?”
nodded. The spasms did not subside, his right leg had started as well when they
parked in front of the Chinese restaurant.
said lowly, “Maybe we can wait a moment.”
nodded, “O.K. Is there anything I can do? Do you need anything out of your
shook his head, “I actually left my meds at home.”
was really the declaration of their dinner plans having to be postponed and
Shawn was angry at himself for having left the Baclofen tablets at home. He
usually carried a vial in his back pack and left one at home but his one vial
had run out and he had not refilled it.
spasm didn’t let off and Trish could tell Shawn was trying his best to stay
calm but had closed his eyes and his head laid back on the head rest of the
seat. Trish saw his legs shake constantly and it seemed to go right up into his
hips as he was breathing quickly, trying to control the spastic movement of his
over at her and taking a gasping breath he said, “I am so sorry Trish! Maybe we
can get something to go?”
I will make us something at home…we are going home.”
started the car and pulled out of the parking lot. She drove faster than usual,
trying to get home because she knew Shawn was having a difficult time and he
needed his meds. He sat with his eyes closed the whole way, breathing quickly
but trying to stay calm and not panic. With the spastic activity in his hips
and loins he was worried about possible reflexive urination or defecation. He
had drained his bladder at the theater before they left to go eat but there
could be urine in his bladder again.
was angry at his body acting up now. The afternoon with Trish at the movie had
been fun and he had enjoyed it so much. He would have liked to have dinner with
her, making it an unofficial date, but all that was over now, the afternoon had
ended for him and Trish was speeding down the Highway trying to get home.
kept glancing over at Shawn and his face looked moist from sweat. The hand that
was broke was balled into a fist and his right hand was tensely holding down
his legs to keep from jumping so much.
nodded and opened his eyes looking over at her with a sad expression, “O.K.”
the time they arrived in the driveway, Shawn was struggling against his body.
Trish hurried around to the trunk and got his wheelchair out.
was worried somewhat on Shawn’s ability to transfer under the circumstances, “Let
me help you!”
shifted for the transfer, meeting her eyes quickly, “I got it.”
voice was weak and he had a hard time transferring into his chair and when he
glanced down at his leg he saw the dark wet spot on his jeans on the inside of
saw it at the same time and she saw the horror in Shawn’s face, “Don’t worry
about it Shawn!”
hissed through his teeth, “Fuck! I was afraid that would happen.”
biggy, come on!”
Shawn was in his chair still eyeing his jeans, hoping it wouldn’t get worse.
attempted to push himself up the ramp but another spasm shook his body and he
stopped, waiting for the right moment to push his chair up.
was about to take the handles to push his chair but he stopped her, “I got it…”
took her hands off of the handles but waited by his side until Shawn tried
again to get up the ramp, this time succeeding but breathing heavily and his
legs shaking badly.
on the porch Trish quickly unlocked the door and Shawn pushed himself over the
threshold and wheeled straight to his bedroom. He didn’t speak, he was busy
trying not to panic but he was hoping more than anything that only his bladder
had leaked and nothing else. He was angry at himself for not having slipped
into some extra protective briefs before they had left for the movie.
his room he pushed his chair right up to his bed. In bouts his legs were
shaking violently, then not so hard, then almost coming off the foot rest
had followed him to his room but she wasn’t all the way sure if Shawn wanted
her help with anything or if he would have rather been left alone. Still without asking she squatted down in
front of him and held his feet somewhat steady to untie the laces of his
sneakers, she felt his legs tremble without stopping. Shawn didn’t protest as he
watched her take his sneakers off and as much as he did not want to be like
this in front of Trish, there was nothing he could do at the moment.
stood up, “You want to try to get into your bed.”
nodded fighting another spasm. His legs were out of control now, he needed his
medication. He pulled all his strength together and transferred into his bed
with Trish supporting him. He had almost no control over his trunk at the
moment. He laid back, Trish had propped two pillows behind his back.
you bring me some water and give me two Baclofen out of the vial right there?”
toward his bedside table and Trish grabbed the bottle of Baclofen tablets and
handed it to Shawn, “I’ll get some water.”
hurried out while Shawn got the tablets out.
looked down at his jeans and saw the wet spot even bigger now. He really wanted
to get out of his pants as soon as possible.
came back with a glass of water, Shawn dropped the tablets into his mouth and drank
from the water, swallowing the tablets.
then rushed back out and a moment later came back with a wet wash cloth. To
Shawn’s surprise she softly wiped over his sweaty face.
much as he wanted to protest for a moment, he then let it be because it felt
good. He tried to relax, waiting for the meds to kick in.
said softly, “We need to get you out of your jeans, Shawn!”
was terrified to hear her say that and she added, “Let me help you with it.”
didn’t respond, he didn’t like the idea at all but pondered on the suggestion.
Trish pleaded, “Please! It’s o.k. for me.”
was exhausted and still trembling all over his body. Admitting to himself that
he could use her assistance at this moment wasn’t easy.
softly touched his arm, “Shawn? Would it be O.K. if I help you with this?”
answered lowly, “Do I have a choice?”
didn’t know what to answer. Of course he had a choice but he could make it
easier on himself if he would just let her help him out.
when she wanted to say something a weak smile brushed over Shawn’s face, “Yeah,
I am O.K. with it. You should get a towel from the bathroom!”
nodded at his request and left the room. Shawn started to unbutton and unzip
his jeans with shaky hands. Trish came back with Latex gloves on her hands and she
put the towel under the leg that was wet, “Here…”
put her hands on his waist and started wriggling his jeans down over his butt. They
didn’t look at each other as Trish pulled his jeans all the way down over his legs. Shawn
was very embarrassed and wanted to disappear. Trish exposed black boxer briefs wet
with urine under his jeans.
nursing instincts took over and at that moment she only wanted to help Shawn
out of his mess. He had his head laid back, avoiding Trish’s eyes by looking at
the ceiling, still breathing in gasps and his legs were still trembling from
quickly tucked the towel some more under his leg and butt without a word. Shawn
glanced at her momentarily as she was pulling his jeans all the way off over
his feet and dropping them to the floor. She was very focused on the task.
looked up to Shawn, “Do you want to catheterize?”
shook his head and sat up a bit. His voice was weak and trembling, “I just want
to get my boxers off.”
tried to sit up, holding himself up with his arms but another spasm shot through
him and he fell back again, “Fuck!”
said softly, “Just lay there…I will get it!” She put her hand on the waist of Shawn’s
boxers, “I will pull them off now.”
he had feared most had happened only a few days into their living arrangement. Watching
Trish pull off his underwear, he literally saw his dignity and the little bit
of toughness he had tried to keep up flow away with the urine leaking with
every spasm. The incident in the bathroom the day before was one thing, this
situation was a whole different story.
walked out with the wet clothes.
had his arm over his eyes, the last attempt to somehow magically disappear
which just didn’t happen. She came back with another wet wash cloth and Shawn
glanced through under his arm watching how Trish wiped his leg and his fully
exposed manhood. His breathing now was not so much because of spasms anymore
but much more due to sheer embarrassment and shame.
stayed calm and focused wiping his leg and his privates and dried him with the
towel from under his butt, “Shawn, where are your incontinence briefs?”
said in a mumble without looking at her, “Under the bed and in the closet!”
down to look under the bed, pulled one of the padded briefs from the package
and then silently slid them over Shawn’s skinny, lifeless legs up to his
spasms had weakened, he still had his arm over his face but when he glanced
through again he saw Trish just looking at his legs and then he saw her put her
hand on his leg and let her hand glide over it. She then quickly pulled her
hand off and she pulled the sheet over him covering him to his belly.
“Shawn? Are you o.k. right now? Seems like your med is kicking in.”
moved his arm from his eyes, it was difficult for him to look at Trish, “Yes, thanks…I
couldn’t really speak and Trish took over the word, “You are welcome…I’m happy I
could help. Is there anything else you need right now?”
I will be washing clothes. Try to get some rest.”
nodded and to his surprise she took the washcloth she had used for his face
earlier and dabbed his forehead again, saying softly, “I know all of this was
difficult for you, Shawn…I want you to know that it was totally O.K. for me to
help you and be there for you.”
couldn’t say anything.
I will be out there…I can leave the door open if you want…call me if you need
he could do was nod. He was exhausted now, the spasms had almost subsided and
only small shock waves travelled through his body, trying to swallow up the
last little bit of strength he had left.
walked out and he could barely hold his eyes open or even think any further
about what had just happened.
started a load of clothes in the washer. Even though she had acted
instinctively trying to help Shawn to her best ability and had been fully
focused and discreet when she finally plopped on the couch she laid her head
back with a sigh, trying to process the situation.
Shawn so helpless and vulnerable wasn’t easy, she knew he wanted to disappear,
it had been difficult for him as well. She had seen his most intimate body
parts when taking off his underwear, she had seen his legs thin and without
life, one leg showing obvious scars around his knee and thigh.
had been nervous about it all but she had not had a choice and when she helped
him with all of it, it really wasn’t a big deal for her. She knew about these
things, she dealt with them regularly in her job at the nursing home. The
difference was that her patients at the nursing home did not attract her in any
way whereas Shawn was an attractive guy her age and it was a lot different to
be assisting him with these very private issues.
also knew that the very intimate urges of urinating and defecating were usually
the most challenging to face for a person becoming paraplegic or quadriplegic.
She saw it was terrifying for Shawn what had happened and to be like this in
front of her but despite the whole situation she had experienced with him she
still felt very attracted to him. The incident had not spoiled it for her, she
was in her element when she helped him, but she knew it was different for him.
felt a kind of relief that what she had went through with Shawn had not changed
her attraction to him. It was an additional confirmation to her that she was
indeed a devotee of disabled men. She would make it her mission to let him know
as soon as the opportunity would arise.
Trish thought about the last three days with Shawn and how they had been
overshadowed by the things that had happened so far.
As she was lost in
thoughts Shawn’s cell phone played its ringtone in his back pack and Trish
jumped up to dig the phone out of it.
saw Jesse’s picture on the display and answered, “Hello!”
heard Jesse on the other line a bit surprised, “Trish? Hey, it’s Jesse!”
how are you?”
am good…how about you?”
all right, just pretty busy.”
started talking briefly about his work and then asked, “How’s Shawn?”
replied lowly, “He’s actually asleep.”
Trish thought for a moment if she should tell Jesse about the day, “We went to
a movie today…”
really, you got Shawn to go to a movie?”
told him how it taken some persuasion for her to get Shawn to go with her but
how they ended up having a good time.
sounded pleased but also a little suspicious, “So he was tired then?”
he was…” Trish felt she sounded a bit shaky and Jesse must have sensed it,
“Trish, is everything o.k.?”
sighed, “Yes, everything is o.k.”
was too alert to not realize something was going on, “Trish, what happened? Is
Shawn all right?”
happened, I don’t want to worry you.”
sounded impatient, “You are doing just that right now…Please tell me what did
didn’t do anything Jesse…”
what is going on then, Trish…” He sounded genuinely worried now.
answered lowly, “Shawn has had a rough day…he had some severe spasms today…it
started after the movie. We wanted to go to dinner but it got too bad and we
couldn’t go and instead we came home.”
wanted more, “And?”
we came home. I helped him into bed, the spasms had caused his bladder to leak,
it was a bit of a mess…it was difficult for him to let me help him with all of
it…he still has difficulties accepting my help.”
sighed, “I’m sorry you had to deal with all of that…he goes weeks without
spasms and then there comes a time when they really kick his butt and he is
down for days…are you O.K.? He is not being an ass to you though, is he?”
not at all…it is not easy for him to take help from me though.”
thought about Shawn falling in the bath tub but decided against telling Jesse,
she didn’t want to worry him more than he already did.
asked, “Are you sure you are O.K. with all of it?”
I am totally O.K. with it and I am trying to make him feel at ease with me.”
said lowly, “I know it is not easy for him to let you come so close to him…I
just hope he will come around.”
will be O.K., don’t worry about us Jesse. I want you to be able to focus on
your job and all…I know this job is important to you guys.”
Trish…I am very glad you are there with Shawn.”
paused for a moment until he said lowly, “I have been thinking about our night
together quite a bit this week.”
was surprised about that comment, “Yes, it was a good night!”
laughed softly, “You almost caused me to not take the job.”
said softly, “Jesse…”
cut her off, “Yeah, I know, it’s all good…I guess it was a very nice send off
for me. I am still feeding off of it down here with all these guys around, too
much testosterone in one place can be annoying.”
laughed, “I can just imagine.”
laughed again, “Believe me, you can’t. Anyways, I did enjoy our night together
and I am very happy you snuck into my room that night but I get it, we had a
deal, no strings attached. I will let you go now. Please Trish, if anything is
going on you can call me at any time.”
know, I just don’t want you to worry about us.”
know, I don’t want to lose your help with Shawn and you being there with him, I
am very thankful you are there and I trust you…but don’t hesitate to call me if
things are weird or just anything.”
will! I will also tell Shawn that you called!”
he take his meds for the spasms?”
he did and they subsided after a while, but he got very tired.”
one of the side effects, he may be out for a while.”
I will try to call again tomorrow!”
could tell that Jesse was very worried about Shawn and about how things were
working out with her, and she confirmed again, “Please, don’t worry about us,
will try not to…well, Trish, take care then and I will talk to you tomorrow.”
“Good, you take care and have a Good Night.”
you too. Talk to you later.”
“O.k. Bye Jesse!”
pushed the end call button on Shawn’s phone and laid her head back again. She
was concerned that Jesse had mentioned their night together and it made her
nervous. He was a great guy, any woman would want to be with him and she
thought about who she would choose between the two brothers and Shawn was the
one who kept coming up in her mind. She was glad that Jesse was far away and she
was hoping he wouldn’t want more out of their friendship and one night stand.
It was after eight o’clock and Trish decided to
check on Shawn. She carefully walked up to his room and peeked in. Shawn’s
breathing was soft and regular. He was still covered up and she realized he had
his shirt off too. It was laying on the floor next to the bed. She quietly picked
it up and draped it over the chair in the room. She moved her eyes over to
Shawn for a moment, scanning his face and naked chest and took a deep breath.
Before she walked out she made sure his wheelchair was right by his bed so he
could transfer into it if he needed to.