Thursday, December 31, 2015

He's Not Mr. Perfect - Chapter I

CHAPTER I - The Walk of Shame


As she strolled down the street in those impossibly high heels that would probably grant her a lifetime of back pains in her sixties, Alex swore to herself— that would be the last time she did that. The last time. As if the walk of shame wasn’t, well, shameful enough, she also felt like the alcohol from the previous night hadn’t left her system yet, judging by how cloudy things were in her head. Plus, she’d lost one of her contacts. She’d taken it as a sign from the Universe.
She had to stop seeing Richard. For real.

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

He's Not Mr. Perfect - Chapter II

CHAPTER II -- Wouldn't You Like to Know


“If you’re still planning on drinking that,” she pointed at the half empty bottle that had been sitting there forever. “Don’t. Hot beer sucks.”
Alex placed the condensation slicked bottle on the table with a loud thud. The man looked at her with a set of deep blue eyes, framed by rimless glasses she hadn’t noticed from afar. She liked them better than contacts. He had a Clark Kent kind of vibe to him, which was good—she was a Superman kind of gal.

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

He's Not Mr. Perfect - Chapter III

She couldn’t remember when she had stopped wearing worn out jeans, beaten up Chuck Taylors, red headbands and white shirts with paint stains in it, and honestly Alex didn’t mind having abandoned the starving artsy college student that came with it— now, her closet was mostly made up of pencil skirts and stilettos, she was finally able to have a diet that didn’t consist in different-ways-to-prepare-a-lamen and she could afford a place that could fit the living room that studio apartment she had shared with three other people, but sometimes her heart ached for the unlawfulness of her college days. Which was probably why she loved building presentation models. They felt real, messy, not like the 3D plants in a computer software; all the fine work and concentration required to turn the picture inside her head into miniature perfection was really all she needed to take her head off her mundane concerns.
Except that she didn’t want to take her head off her mundane concerns.

Monday, December 28, 2015

He's Not Mr. Perfect - Chapter IV

When he called that night, Alex figured the chances he was cancelling again were drastically low, but still there. Especially after she’d called him that morning, still staring at the great flower arrange—roses. Roses were never cliché, they could never be overdone. Roses were roses, the same way passion was passion, just never quite enough; somethings could transcend time unharmed, like fine wine—better with time. Classy. Traditional. Consistent. Alex loved them. But roses were a long way from washing away her personal vendetta. She’d make him squirm a bit.
“I eat lunch at my desk.” Alex had told him as soon as he picked up, using her best annoyed voice.

Sunday, December 27, 2015

He's Not Mr. Perfect - Chapter V

Chapter V - Cappuccinos & Croissant

“I know you have lunch at your desk, but maybe you’d be willing to make an exception?
“I think you missed the point, Mr. Masters,” she grinned. “It’s not that I have lunch at my desk, it’s that I don’t have lunch.”
“So you basically just starve yourself to death?”
“I’m not starving. I’m just not hungry during lunch.”
Not that she needed any excuse to be with him. But Alex rejoiced in being reassured like that. He wanted to be with her. And that shook the butterflies inside her stomach awake from their sleep.

Saturday, December 26, 2015

He's Not Mr. Perfect - Chapter VI

CHAPTER V Dinner & a Movie



“Oh my God.”
Her voice cut through the silence, interrupting the water flow in the kitchen.
“What?” He asked.
“Oh my God, Elliot.” She spun in her heels to find a clueless man. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Tell you what?” He frowned, drying his hand in a World's Best Uncle little towel he had in his lap.
Alex put her hands in her hips.
“This is first date content, you don’t omit something like that.” He wheeled around the kitchen island, still oblivious and concerned. “It’s a serious matter.”
“Uh?”
“I mean, I didn’t sign up for that. I'm afraid I can't overlook it...”

Friday, December 25, 2015

He's Not Mr. Perfect - Chapter VII

CHAPTER VII The White Chucks Society

She’d come to notice that there were two Elliots—the one from after work, who wore impeccable white dress shirts and a tie she had no idea how he tied, who had a crease between his eyebrows 70% of the time and looked absolutely deadly. And there was the casual Elliot, and honestly, the only difference between the two of them were the Chucks.
“I love your shoes,” she’d told him once.
Elliot looked down, as if to check what shoes he was wearing. “I must have had them for a decade.”

Thursday, December 24, 2015

He's Not Mr Perfect — Chapter VIII


CHAPTER VIII Baise-Moi




Fuck me.

Elliot said it under his breath, but loud enough that Alex heard it. She looked around, trying to find out what was giving him such a deep crease between his eyebrows, but got nothing. He did a weight shift by bending over his knees and pushed against his thighs to sit back.
“What’s up?"

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

He's Not Mr. Perfect - Chapter IX

CHAPTER IX Dirty Little Secret



“Thank God for hand controls.”
Alex barely reacted to his voice. She simply turned her head around, her cheek pressed against the steering wheel.
She held her breath, her face burning. I’m sorry, she wanted to say, but instead looked down at the polka dot skirt she’d taken less than a second to find, lying on the kitchen floor, and slip over her head.
Disgusting, Alexandra. You’re disgusting.
“Or you’d have stolen my car.”
She tried to detect a trace of bitterness in his voice, anything that told her he was as disappointed and angry at her as she was at herself. But when she dared to look up at him, instead of his lips pressed into a thin line and a deep frown between his brows, Alex found a lopsided smile.
Alex heaved a sigh of relief and despite herself, she gave him a tiny, more ashamed than happy, smile.
“Sorry,” she said under her breath.
“So your plan was…”
“I didn’t have one,” Alex confessed, feeling her face burn with shame.
°

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - The Aftermath

Thank you guys for a wonderful first half of a season! It's been a rough ride for me as many of you know, emotionally and physically, and it's been great to have my loyal readers to help encourage me along the way. I know I/E isn't at all what most people look for in a story on here, but looking back at the previous two seasons I really feel like this one is even better than those that came before, and I feel like it's something I can be proud of.

Previously on In/Exhale: Kai has agreed that he and Jon should both move in to Vicky's house as the best way to ensure he continues to recover while minimizing Jon's anxiety. Kai finds out that his hearing loss is permanent and pretty severe in the higher frequencies, and Jon convinces him to get the best hearing aid on the market to help him hear sounds normally out of his range, but it will take time for him to adjust, literally and emotionally, to his new reality, despite his being fine on the surface.

This Week on In/Exhale: Jon takes Kai to eat and the emotions of the day threaten to explode out. Jon confronts Kai about some of his secrets. Ultimately, Kai is able to find hope and finally see himself as part of Jon's family with Vicky.

Next Time on In/Exhale (after hiatus): Kai returns to school for his first day of class with his new hearing aids, trying to be fine with his new life and yet struggling all the same. Renee supports him and boosts his confidence to talk to Zach, his advisor, and start charting his future.

February 6, 2001 - Part III

Updated Table of Contents.

I'll be taking a few weeks off to catch up on this story since I don't have any more completed days after this one. A lot are half done, and I don't know how long it will take me since I'd like to have probably 3-4 days (which would be probably 12 episodes) done at least before I start posting again.

I also want to use some of this time if my headache/health allows to get back to work on my NaNo project (in case you missed it, you can read an excerpt on my blog). I've gotten a lot of great feedback on the short excerpt I posted, and one friend who has read the first 25,000 words is threatening bodily harm if I don't let her read more soon, lol.

I can't say it enough how amazing it is to have the loyal readers and commenters out there for encouragement. Kai and I are not so unalike in that way. As Renee says to him at one point in the next episode, "I'll tell you 10x a day, every day, if I have to," and I can be like that, too. Especially with my health, with the relentless pain (I thought acupuncture was helping but now I'm not so sure it is) there can be a lot of really, really dark days for me. (Again, Kai and I are alike there, too.)

I will miss you guys a lot, but I'll try to post a few times on my blog if I can, and I may even put up a special sexy excerpt of my NaNo project here that I won't post on my blog.

I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas if you celebrate, and if you don't, that you still have a great next few weeks, and a Happy New Year.

You can also follow me on Twitter for updates, too.

-CA

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

In/Exhale - Kai's Hearing Test

So sorry this episode was late, guys. I know that I've put Kai through a lot, and I know it may seem like "too much" to some people. But I take the story where I feel it's going, and there's a lot of my own personal experience in it (even if it's fictionalized), and maybe because of that I can't help seeing all the complexities of a situation or illness. Maybe this doesn't make any sense to any of you reading this right now, but while it may seem sometimes like things happen "just because" in this story, I promise I've given a lot of thought and sometimes have explored multiple different branching paths before settling on the version I've shared with you.

Previously on In/Exhale: As a result of a dangerous infection in December, Jon had no choice but to give Kai's doctors permission to treat him with drugs that could potentially damage his inner ear. Now, weeks later, Kai's feeling the effects: vertigo, tinnitus, and hearing loss. He's making some good progress with his recovery from his mental illness, beginning to be more open and trusting of those close to him, but he still has a long road ahead of him.

This week on In/Exhale: Kai sees the ENT and has his hearing test, finally discovering whether or not his hearing loss is permanent, and how severe his inner ear damage is.

Next week on In/Exhale: The final episode before the break. Kai and Jon deal with the fallout of the rest of the day--deciding to move into Vicky's and Kai's hearing test results.

February 6, 2001 - Part II


Thank you so much to my loyal readers, to those of you who've followed my crazy, melodramatic saga week after week, who take the time to comment. I love reading your comments, especially seeing how you interpret a particular episode or incident. Thank you all so much.

And thanks again for those of you who've given me feedback on my NaNo project. I had to put it on temporary hold because of my health, but part of what I plan to do during my break is to work on it. And I may post a surprise snippet here on the blog (that I won't post on my site) just for you. :)

I'll be taking time off after next week's episode, but don't worry; I have a LOT more in store before the season ends!

-CA

As always, the Table of Contents has been updated.

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Footsteps Chapter Thirteen is Up!

Hello, Rose here! As promised, I haven't forgotten you lovely readers! I've been somewhat hiding under a rock recently, but I'm crawling out every now and again as Christmas approaches.

I was very touched by your comments and feedback on Chapter Twelve, so a heartfelt thank you for those. It means a lot.

As for this chapter, we begin to see a little doubt creeping in with the emergence of someone from Caleb's past, but hopefully you'll enjoy some of the more touching moments too.

I hope that, as ever, you will let me know your thoughts on my story. I promise you I will see it through to completion, and it's all mapped out. I just need to write it!



And the Table of Contents has been updated too.


Take care, and thank you!
Rose

*EDIT* I have been under my rock so long I forgot which chapter this was in the post title. That has now been altered... Ooops!

Thursday, December 10, 2015

A Christmas Miracle

This is a singleton story, in honor of the holidays.  Hope you enjoy it!

A Christmas Miracle



Taylor

One of the first things that attracted me to my husband over 10 years ago was his virility.  If he wasn't running a marathon, he was competing in a bike race or maybe climbing a mountain. Joel was always moving, running, exercising. He had this perfect, toned body without even having to specifically work out at a gym. He had the sexiest body of any man I have ever met.  That's part of why I fell in love with him.

Looking at Joel now, sitting next to me, his body strapped into a power wheelchair, his fingers curled and positioned in splints, his legs immobile, the word "virility" is the last thing that comes to mind. Another word much more quickly comes to mind, a word we've tried to avoid saying for the last year and a half since that damn truck hit Joel's bicycle:

Crippled.

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 48 - The End

Hello all my loyal readers, it is Wednesday and here I am with the next and final chapter of TAC. I bring you Chapter 48 and in this chapter you will meet everyone one more time. I have to say I was sad when I wrote those final two words at the end of the chapter, but I feel the story has played itself out. This story is the first finished story for me here on the Blog. I know I left "No Strings Attached" open for a Part 2 and I am working on it but TAC did take most of my time over the last year. I am also working on another story already which I am excited about but still will have to work on for a while to start posting. So Wednesdays are open again for any other authors here on our Blog. I had such a wonderful time posting every week for you, well, almost every week. I got so used to my main characters Trish, Shawn and Jesse. They felt so real at times and I have a special spot for them in my heart. I also have a special spot in my heart for all my readers and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your comments and feedback and for taking the time to follow TAC every week. I was very surprised to see all the hits on the last chapter and I am still trying to figure out what attracted so many readers or did people read it a couple of times...:-) I am debating if I should give publishing a try with TAC but I just don't know if I can pull it off. Anyways, I love all of you and your loyalty meant so very much to me. Thank you sooooo much, Yours truly, Dani
One last updated Table Of Contents: Table Of Content Three's A Crowd

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - Jon Takes His Turn

So I debated starting my break today but decided I'd go ahead and post this last day, which will divide into three episodes, then take my break. These episodes basically comprise the before, during, and after Kai's hearing test/exam.

Previously on In/Exhale: As a result of some antibiotics he was given during a major infection back in December, Kai has lost some of his hearing. This adds to the struggle he's already dealing with, although he's beginning to make some strides with help from Dr. Miller and those close to him. Meanwhile, although the brothers have reconciled and Vicky's family seems to grudgingly accept her relationship with Jon and the pregnancy, she's still a wedge placing a strain on the brothers' relationship.

This Week on In/Exhale: Because Kai took their last co-session for himself, today they are supposed to make it up. However, Kai recognizes the stress his brother is under lately and volunteers Jon take the time for himself. As a result, Jon is forced to explore some of his deep-seated issues such as his guilt and worry, and the two brothers finally come to a solution to their living situation.

Next Week on In/Exhale: Kai has his hearing test and exam to determine the extent and permanence of his hearing loss.

February 6, 2001 - Part I


Thank you again to those of you who continue to read and comment. It really does mean so much to me. I'm particularly glad you enjoyed last week's episode. I have to admit that was one of the episodes that made me fall in love with Bryan in that bittersweet way some of you spoke of. You'll probably see more of him in flashbacks in the future. ;)

-CA

PS - The Table of Contents is updated as usual.

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Blue

Hi guys,
this very tiny story is on the weirder side of my writing. Hopefully it is to someone's liking... =)
Dubious consent, so be warned.

Lovis

Blue


Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Sorry - no "Three's A Crowd" this week

Hello my readers, I am sorry but I couldn't get the next chapter of TAC done for this week. It has been too busy for me the last few days and even though I tried I don't want to give you a half done chapter. I was surprised that for some reason the hits on last week's chapter had doubled compared to all the weeks before. I am not sure if it was the sex I had announced for the chapter even though there had been other chapters with sex that didn't get that many hits. Oh well, I am thankful for all my readers even though lots of times I wish I would know what people actually think about the stuff they read. If it was the sex, did they like it? :-) I do have my regular and loyal readers who give me signs that they are out there somewhere and I appreciate that a lot. I know all authors feel that way but we need the feedback to see if what we are doing is actually worth it. Anyhow, thanks for all your time and comments, I appreciate it so much. Sorry again for no TAC chapter this week. I will make up for it next week. Hugs, Yours, Dani

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - Father/Son Bonding

So this episode was one I wrote for myself initially. Originally, I envisioned it as Jon reminiscing about a particular moment of his childhood, spending some time with his father and brother. However, as I expanded it, it soon developed into a more traditional third-person episode because I found myself wanting to slide into Bryan's POV, to get to know him better.

Then, as the third season progressed, I realized there was a shift starting to happen, and this episode felt like it really fit at this point in time. So I finished it up, polished it up a little, and here it is.

Bryan is Jon's hero in a lot of ways, even so many years after his death, and with everything going on with his baby on the way, he's been thinking more and more about Bryan. So I felt like this was the perfect chance to get some insight into what kind of man Bryan was first-hand, so-to-speak, and why he's still Jon's idol.

Previously on In/Exhale: Kai has finally made some progress in his life, opening up to some of those closest to him and becoming a bit more self-aware of how his mental illness affects those around him. Jon and Vicky have tackled the hurdle of informing her parents about the pregnancy, and Jon has even gone so far as to call his adoptive father.

This week on In/Exhale: A flashback to when Kai was four and Jon was twelve in which they spend some time with their father.

Coming up on In/Exhale: Kai and Jon have a scheduled co-session with Dr. Miller, but Kai, sensing Jon needs the time to himself, gives it up. The two brothers, with Dr. Miller's help, finally talk about a life-changing decision they've been putting off, and Kai finally has his hearing test to discover the reality of his hearing loss. Jon and Kai deal with the consequences of the earlier days events.

Flashback: August 9, 1982


I've updated the Table of Contents, as always.

I do think I'm going to need a break soon. I've been pretty sick on top of everything and haven't really been able to write at all lately, so I'll probably take a few weeks to finish the draft of my NaNo book and get caught up on I/E. I have several episodes started but not finished, and I sort of just need some time to relax. But don't worry, it won't be long, I promise. :)

-CA

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 47

Hello friends, sorry I am running a little bit behind and it is already Wednesday evening here. For some of you it may even already be Thursday so I am sorry I am late today. It has been busy for me with work and also getting ready for Thanksgiving. No I am not making a Turkey, never have but will enjoy hanging out with friends tomorrow. Well, here is this week's chapter of TAC Chapter 47. In this week's installment Kristy is finally coming home and especially Jesse is of course very happy about that. Trish and Shawn are happy for Jesse and Kristy as well. Once again in this chapter it gets very steamy for our favorite couple. While editing and rewriting some of the chapter I got pretty hot myself....:-) So, I am definitely thankful for my characters who are always floating around in my head. Wishing everyone a Happy Thanksgiving and remember to always be thankful for all the good things in your lives. We tend to forget in the craziness of our lives but there is a lot to be thankful for. I am also thankful for all my loyal readers, you make it all worthwhile when you read and let me know how you like it. Big hug, Dani

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - Family Dinner


Happy Thanksgiving! It seems fitting that this week's episode is about a family dinner, and it unintentionally reminds me a little of my first Thanksgiving with my husband (then recent fiance). Let's just say my father in particular wasn't real thrilled about the whole situation.

Last Week on In/Exhale: Renee and Kai finally talked, and he was able to confess to her some of his demons, drawing them closer and renewing their commitment to each other that as long as they have each other, they can face any challenge.

This Week on In/Exhale: Jon and Vicky finally face her parents to tell them about the pregnancy; things go smoother than they'd hoped, but they still face a rocky road, although Vicky is determined to face it with Jon no matter what. Jon and Kai finally makeup for their fight over Jon canceling their swim date, and Jon calls his adoptive father to tell him the news. After, he turns to Kai for support, and the tables are turned a little as younger brother consoles older brother.

Next Week on In/Exhale: Flashback to when Kai was four and Jon was twelve as the two spend a rare day in the park with their father, Bryan, the man whom Jon inspires to imitate as a man and a father.

February 3, 2001 - Part IV


I want to thank all of you who read the excerpt of my NaNoWriMo project last week, and even more the ones who took the time to comment here or on my blog about it. I actually "won" NaNo on the 21 (completed 50,000 words) but I still have a ways to go before the draft is finished. Still, it makes me excited to know that you are excited about it, and I'll be sure to give you more details as the project goes along.

I *may* take a few weeks off after either next week's episode or the next few after it. I need time to catch up with the story since Nano and life have pulled me away from it, and with the holidays it may be nice to just chill. But I will let you know for sure if I decide to do that.

Happy reading,

-CA

PS - Table of Contents is updated as always.

Thursday, November 19, 2015

Forging Ahead

Hi everyone,

I accidentally posted this yesterday on Dani's day (and have apologized to her accordingly!), so I'm trying again today. I hope that Thursday's are free... it seems that they are, but if they aren't, I do apologize!

Anyway, I've been working on a new story for about a year now. It's only about halfway finished, but I've written almost enough chapters to begin posting them here, so I wanted to get your opinions. :) After all, you all are the reason we all continue to write and post on here. :)

Fair warning: this is a bit different than anything I've written before, and although this excerpt isn't dark, the story itself will be. It's a new genre for me and also has a deeper, more developed plot line than anything I've worked on before.

Anyhoo...let me know what you think?

Also, this is a working title, so if you have any suggestions on that based from this snippet you're reading, those are readily welcomed too! :)

And now, without further ado... Forging Ahead, a preview.

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 46

Hello again, I hope you enjoyed last week's chapter with some intimate moments between Trish and Shawn. Here is Chapter 46 of TAC for this week. Not so much intimacy but more of a transitioning chapter where Jesse and Shawn talk about the future some. I hope you still want to read along to find out what lies ahead for our three main characters. Thanks for your time and comments on TAC every week. I appreciate all of you. Hugs, Dani
Table of Contents:   TOC

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - Renee Lovers Rejoice

So, originally I was going to post these two episodes separately, and they can stand fine on their own, but they share a common theme: Kai and Renee reforging their relationship.

A couple of these scenes--including the one in which Kai and Renee have lunch and the one they share at the end of the day--are two of my favorite moments in the entire season. The first of these scenes is perhaps one of the most important in all of season three, and I hope you enjoy them.

Previously on In/Exhale: Kai's first week back in the real world has taken its toll on him. He's been riddled with nightmares and panic attacks that nearly pushed him to the brink. His hearing loss, combined with his natural tendency to withdraw has been pushing he and Renee apart, but Dr. Miller gives Kai knew hope and reassurances that he can recover.

This week on In/Exhale: Kai finally goes to visit David at his house to tell him the truth about his hearing loss, despite his fears that it may fracture their relationship. Then Kai does his best to make amends with Renee, and the two share an afternoon together, their relationship growing even stronger in the process.

Next week on In/Exhale: Jon and Vicky finally go to her parents' house to have "the" talk, and it brings up a lot of old wounds. Later, Jon and Kai finally make amends, and after Jon makes a long overdue call to his adoptive father, the two brothers also become closer, working on healing some of the fractures that have developed over the past few weeks.


Thanks again to those of you who take time to comment. I probably shouldn't admit how often I check to see if there's a new comment on my story; that's how much I appreciate them.

As for NaNoWriMo, things are coming along well. My health hasn't been great so that's hampered my progress, but so far I have about 40,000 words and a character named Jackson I think you all are going to really come to love.

I've posted some info about this project, including an excerpt, on my blog to give you guys a taste of what to expect as I'm getting more confident this will be my next finished project.

-CA

PS - The Table of Contents has been updated, as always.

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Chianti Classico Bonus Chapter

Hi everyone, I wrote this part as a bonus chapter to the Chianti story and realized halfway through it makes an even better last chapter than the actual last one. So this is it now, bonus chapter, definitely last last chapter, whatever =)

Enjoy, comment and thanks for reading!

Lovis

Chianti Classico - Part V

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 45

Hello friends, I made it back home to the US. I had a good time in Germany for two weeks but missed my writing hobby. I bring you Chapter 45 of TAC for this week. I realize Trish and Shawn were missing a bit from the story lately and I hope I can make up for that lack with bringing you a chapter fueled by their loving and passionate devotee/paraplegic relationship. Yes, there is sex so I hope I have your attention with that :-) I appreciate all of you reading and taking your time to comment, thanks so much, Hugs, Yours, Dani.
Happy Veterans Day and thank you to all who served and are still serving!

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - I Want To Live

When I introduced Dr. Miller in this version of the story (she had a role in the original iteration), I'll admit I didn't expect her to play such an important role. So I apologize to those of you who don't care for her appearances. However, I've found that she's a bit of my dream therapist, lol, and I find writing and reading some of her sessions to be very . . . consoling, for lack of a better word.

This episode in particular. Although Kai's story, even in its original version, has always had its dark patches, I'll admit even I didn't envision the direction the story would take when I first set out to share it with all of you. A lot of the story is of course, fictional, but there's also so much of me in it--much more than my other writing--that some episodes in particular may be difficult for me to write but can also be extremely therapeutic.

And this episode is one of them.

As several of you have commented, Kai and Renee are slowly heading toward something. Kai still has a lot of self discovery and awareness ahead, but he's slowly, bit by bit, getting there, trying as hard as he can.

This episode is long, but it covers a lot that needed to be dealt with, and I hope you'll enjoy it.

Monday, November 9, 2015

Footsteps - Chapter Twelve is up

Hello! It's six minutes to midnight here in England, so I've got exactly that time left of 'Monday' to post!!

Two weeks and two posts in a row... I know a couple of readers who may need a trip to the ER with heart issues after seeing two posts from me in a row, so I apologise, and only ask that you take my story with you to read there...

On a serious note, thank you for your support. It was because of the wealth of comments on the last episode that I got my backside in gear and sat down and wrote this (long) chapter for you, as a thank you. Can't promise another one next Monday because I'm horribly behind on work now, but I needed to write this one, as much for me as for you.

Enough waffle - here's Chapter Twelve. We start with Caleb feeling a little vulnerable, and we end with a little New Year's adventure and gift-giving.

Table of Contents is updated too if you want to go back and re-read anything.

Many thanks,
Rose

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 44

Hello my loyal readers. Well, while visiting with friends and family in Germany and sightseeing this beautiful country I managed to edit the next chapter for TAC Chapter 44. I want to make you happy. Today I am flying home again. It will be a looonnngggg trip. In this chapter Jesse is finally going home again as well. Things are moving on and looking up for the brothers and Trish. Much anticipated is the return of Kristy who will also be coming home soon. Thanks so much for your time reading this story and looking forward to your comments if you feel like it.. Hugs, Dani
Updated Table of Contents: TOC

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - The Day Comes to a Close

Hey, everyone. Sorry this episode is up a little later than usual. I actually decided to attempt NaNoWriMo this year despite my headache as a challenge to myself, and I'm attempting to write a blind character, which I've never done before. So far so good, and I promise I'll let you read some of it once I have more written.

Previously on In/Exhale: Kai's long Friday took its toll on him to the point at which he found himself cutting and even contemplating suicide, but he determined to survive, as always, and went to the ASL class in which he had a blast with the kids, including Steve's cousin. Renee, meanwhile, is feeling the pain of the distance Kai's put between them, partially because of his hearing loss and the language barrier. She confessed all of Kai's secret to her roommate and best friend, and asked David for reassurance about their relationship. David is convinced that despite Kai's reluctance to put it into words, he loves Renee, and love can conquer all. Renee isn't so convinced.

This Week on In/Exhale: The long Friday finally nears its end. The class is over and Renee finds herself led on an unexpected tour of the school, although Kai's good mood doesn't last long, partially because of a revelation that may potentially change the fabric of the Jonesville community. But when David suggests they all go out, Kai doesn't say no, although the venue Megan innocently choses throws Kai for a loop. Ultimately, Renee confronts Kai on his behavior, determined that communication is the only way they'll survive, but things don't go exactly as she planned.

Next Week on In/Exhale: Kai's makeup session with Dr. Miller forces him to confront some of the things he's been reluctant to so far, and despite feeling lost, she helps guide him onto the right path.

February 2, 2001 - Part IV


Thanks again as always for those of you who've left me such great feedback. It really is a motivation for me through each long week. I still have plenty more in store for Kai, so keep reading! :)

-CA

PS - Table of Contents is updated, as always.

Monday, November 2, 2015

Footsteps - Chapter 11 is up

*waves* 

"Remember me?" Rose asks nervously from the shadows. "Well, I'm back with a chapter of my story, if you're interested still... You can find it here. That's all... Thanks for sticking with the story if you still are... What's that? Does this mean I'm back posting regularly again? Ummm...."

*shuffles nervously*

"Not exactly... but I'll keep going with the story - I promise."

*waves and shuffles off nervously, leaving a link to Chapter 11, and a quick thanks.*


Table of Contents updated too.


Thanks, 
Rose 

*exit stage left, pursued by a huge backlog of other PD stories to catch up on...*

Sunday, November 1, 2015

New Podcast!





Paradevo members Hartmannwrites and James have made a podcast! You can listen to the first episode here:
http://www.gimpyandthebanana.com/


Wednesday, October 28, 2015

No TAC this week, sorry

Hello loyal TAC readers, as I had warned already last week I am not able to post the next installment of TAC this week due to my being in Germany on vacation. I tried to work some on the chapter but I couldn't get it ready and edited to be posted on time. I am so sorry but I can tell you even I miss working on my writing and I miss spending time with my characters. Anyhow, I will see what I can do for next week but I am actually flying back to the US on Wednesday next week. Maybe I can post at least a part of the next chapter. Thank you for your understanding and patience. Hugs, Dani

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - ASL Class

TODAY'S EPISODE IS THE OFFICIAL 75th EPISODE!! Whoo hoo!


Obviously, I've posted more than 75 installments, but if they were posted together, they counted as one, so here we are, 75! Hard to believe, and still going strong!

This week's episode will be far lighter than the last, giving you all an emotional break, and I hope you will feel Kai's momentary joy here along with him. It feels like a fitting way to celebrate this milestone.

Previously on In/Exhale: We see behind the curtain. The pressures of the entire week mount on Kai, and although he survives, he relapses with his self harm, big time, and even considers suicide before he decides to call Dr. Miller, put his mask back on, and move forward. Renee, frustrated by the distance she feels between her and Kai, especially because of the sometimes language barrier, turns to her best friend and roommate, to whom she confesses all of Kai's hard-kept secrets.

This week on In/Exhale: The long-awaited ASL class, and the curtain firmly back in place. Although David in particular is concerned about his friend, Kai rolls in and slips into his teacher's role almost seamlessly. Steve returns, and we finally get to meet her cousin.

Next week on In/Exhale: The long Friday finally comes to an end as we see the physical and mental exhaustion begin to wear away at Kai, and things come to a head between him and Renee as she decides she will not be a doormat. Kai learns some devastating news that could radically alter the future of Jonesville and his connection to his past.

February 2, 2001 - Part III


So I know I took a risk with last week's episode, and I'm glad at least a few of you appreciated it. It was so personal for me in a lot of ways and it was kind of hard to see the intro post get more comments bc of my pictures than the actual post itself, but I suppose that's life. I'm grateful to my loyal readers who give me the impetus to keep posting.

I do think that despite everything I'm going to try for Nano this year. I have a new story idea (ha like I need another one, right?) that came to me very recently and I'm feeling very inspired to work on, partially because it's a disability I've never attempted to write before: blindness. I'm hoping that it will turn into something, and I'll try to post a snippet as soon as I have one to share.

This shouldn't affect the weekly postings of I/E, though, as I have enough pre-written to meet the next month at least. But I'll of course keep you all updated.

Thanks as always for your support, and I hope you enjoy this week's episode!

-CA

PS, Oh, and I've updated the Table of Contents, as always.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Chianti Classico Part IV - last one!

Hi everyone! Here comes the last part of the Chianti series. Yes... I know. It makes up for that with being real long and, as I explained in a comment to the third part, content that made it inappropriate for writing in public places.

Have fun!

Chianti Classico - Part IV

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 43

Hello my friends, here is this week's installment of TAC Chapter 43.
I have to tell you guys that I am not sure if I am able to post chapters in the next two weeks as I am flying to Germany today. I haven't been home in five years and even though a little nervous I am also looking forward to see my mother and sister with her family. We are celebrating my mother's 75th birthday and my mom has no idea that I am coming to the party. It is a big surprise. I am bringing all my TAC material along and also started a new project but I am not sure how much time I will really have to write and edit. I know I will work some on it on the plane since it is such a long flight.
Anyways, in this week's chapter, Jesse gets some news and Shawn and Jesse have some words. Shawn finds out something he didn't know from Jesse.
Again, I want to thank all of you for reading and commenting, you are the best. I appreciate you so  much! Hugs, Dani

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - Trigger Warning

This week's episode is difficult. We see behind the curtain for both Kai and Renee, and there are scenes that may make you uncomfortable. But they're necessary.

When I was working on this season, I got to a point where I knew I had to show Kai's cutting routine. I felt like it was important for the reader to be in his head, and I actually found writing (and reading over) the scene very cathartic. Self-harming behavior, especially cutting, is something that I feel is radically misunderstood by most people. Generally, it's not a bid for attention but an attempt to escape deep emotional pain, to reassert control in a life that otherwise feels so chaotic. It's not unlike a drug addiction in that it involves secrecy, denial, and escalation.

The "sex" scenes in this episode are also slightly unconventional--but then I never do things the way other people do, do I?--and again, may make you a little uneasy. But that's the point. Yes, of course we've gotten in Kai's head plenty this season, but again, this episode is like seeing behind that final curtain to the layers that even Kai is often in denial about.

And as for Renee, she makes a decision with potentially major future repercussions, but that scene came about naturally as I began to feel more and more of what she must be going through as she struggles alongside Kai.

And everything that happens in this episode is necessary for what happens next week, and the week after that, and the week after that. . . .

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Chianti Classico Part III

Hey, guys! I know this is short. I know it seems like I enjoy torturing you. This is absolutely not true. Or... is it?

Thanks for reading and commenting!

Chianti Classico - Part III

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 42

Hello my readers, here is the next installment of TAC Chapter 42. I can't believe it either how many chapters it has been already. I thank my loyal readers for reading and commenting, you are definitely what keeps me going. I do enjoy writing and I know I am still learning in the process. This week's chapter brings Kristy and Jesse closer but also brings some unexpected news. Hope you enjoy this chapter and again, Thanks as always for your loyalty and commenting, Hugs, Dani

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

In/Exhale Continues - Back to School


A head's up about the next couple days: So Friday, February 2 and Saturday, February 3 are both really crucial days in the third season storyline for Kai, Renee, Jon, and Vicky. They're both pretty long days, especially Friday, but I hope you'll enjoy them.

At this point (Friday), all the stress of the past week is beginning to mount on Kai. He's still alienated from Jon because of their fight, and the intensity of his nightmares means he's been sleeping less and less. But at the same time, Kai is struggling to fight against everything and still live his life. So today (and Saturday) are the affects of that.

Also, when I was working on Season Three, one thing I realized was that Renee was almost too perfect. Too accepting. Too forgiving. And while she is very accepting and forgiving and loving of Kai, his illness affects her just as much as it does him, so over the course of Friday's episodes, we'll begin to see more of her side of things and not just Kai's.

Friday is divided into four episodes, with each carrying its own little story arch of sorts. I know that makes it an incredibly long day, but it's insanely long for Kai so that's partially why I wanted the text to reflect that. Some of these episodes will be difficult to read, but they're all crucial to Kai and Renee's story. I hope, that when we reach the end of this portion of the season, you will be incredibly satisfied by how far everyone has come.

Previously on In/Exhale: Kai has had an agonizing week filled with panic attacks, hearing loss, and betrayals by those he feels close to. Horrible nightmares have affected his sleep, and Kai is beginning to feel alienated and frustrated, yet at the same time is determined not to give up.

This Week on In/Exhale: Kai and Jon still haven't reconciled; if anything, they're growing farther apart as Kai can't get over his anger. Lack of sleep and a torrent of emotions, including his persistent anxiety haunt Kai throughout the day and begin to take their toll on those around him. Kai meets with his advisor as he plans the next stage of his school life.

Next Week on In/Exhale: We see behind Kai's curtain as we witness some of his coping strategies and struggles that have otherwise been veiled. Renee feels the distance between her and Kai grow, and upset and with no one to talk to about everything going on with Kai, she confides in someone all of Kai's secrets. But it's possible Kai has already been pushed to his breaking point.

February 2, 2001 - Part I


I've updated the Table of Contents, as always.

I also wanted to say a special thank you for those of you who offered support to me last week, especially Pepper, Lovis, Anne, and Dani. It really meant a lot, especially with how bad my headache has been in the past few days. Thank you. And thank you to all my readers who have stuck by me for two and a half seasons!

-CA

Monday, October 12, 2015

New book about cute quad!

I just wanted to let everyone know that the second book in my series, about a woman who has a romance with a cute quadriplegic, is now available to purchase on Amazon:



For those of you who read the original version of this story, I have made massive changes. So it would be an entirely different experience to read. For those of you who have not read the original, here is the back cover:

Millie Glockenfeld's luck has finally turned around.
After years of terrible relationships, Millie has just gotten engaged to the man of her dreams. Sam Webber is adorably geeky, and most importantly, he's crazy about Millie. So what if Sam is disabled and uses a wheelchair full-time? And so what if Millie's mother doesn't approve and has decided to boycott the wedding? Life is all about rolling with the punches.

Enter Jake Winston, Millie's teenage crush.

When Jake suddenly materializes at the company where Millie works, they become fast friends. It's almost too incredible to believe when Jake confesses that he harbored the same feelings for her in high school that she had for him. But as she spends more and more time with him, Millie starts to realize that her feelings for Jake may not be entirely in the past...

In case you haven't read the first book in the series, it is now available for free on the Kindle on Amazon for a short time!

PS Also, a major shout out to Molly Mirren, for her help with the editing process!

Friday, October 9, 2015

Skin and Scars Chapter 9

Today is the day! New update! Thank you all for your patience and I hope you enjoy this new chapter.


And as always, for those of you just joining us...

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 41

Hi my loyal readers, before I am heading out to work today, here is this week's installment of TAC Chapter 41. I am a little more focused on Jesse and his recovery right now but I think he deserves attention too and definitely deserves to find some happiness soon. Shawn and Trish are there with him all the way, even though Shawn struggles a little bit with his brother moving on. Trish is by his side and sets him straight. So thank you all for following along the life of my three characters, for reading and commenting. I couldn't do it without you. I appreciate all of you, Yours truly, Hugs, Dani
Here is also an updated Table Of Contents: TOC Three's A Crowd

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

In/Exhale Continues

Previously on In/Exhale: Kai and Martin bonded, Kai relating some stories about his middle- and high school days. David had his important job interview that was partly foiled by an incompetent interpreter, but Megan reassured him not to give up and to look to the Deaf community for help.

This week on In/Exhale: Kai and Martin's afternoon together continues as Martin finally gets Kai to talk about the transplant. Reluctantly, Kai discusses things he had never admitted before. Weary from the long day, Vicky calls her sister Roni for support, then gets a surprise visit from Jon. *sex scene

Next week on In/Exhale: The start of a long, rocky day for Kai and Renee. Kai's mood is sour after nights of low sleep and the lingering fight with Jon. Kai goes to the Disability Services office to meet with his advisor about the prospect of moving into a dorm.

So, when I originally sat down and started working on parts of what became Season 3, I ended up writing a bunch of scenes between Kai and Martin. Originally,  I thought I'd keep them just for me, but the more I wrote the more I realized Martin's story was crucial to that of the two brothers--and he's such a fun character, too--that I decided to include some of them.

So this episode has a lot of info about Kai's life before and after his transplant that I thought about not including but decided they were important to Kai's mindset and also to his relationship with Martin. So I hope you guys won't be bored, lol.

February 1, 2001 - Part III


Thanks as always to those who take the time to comment. I know my story is probably the least popular on the blog but it's nice to know there are those who care about it :). The last few months have been really rough for me. (See my blog for details.) So I/E is one of the last things I have "left" it seems like on most days. :(

Again, I've updated the Table of Contents. See you guys next week.

-CA

Sunday, October 4, 2015

Chianti Classico Part II

Hello everyone! Second part. I am freaking tired and still have to work, so keep me awake! Thanks for reading and commenting.

Chianti Classico - Part II

Thursday, October 1, 2015

VIGNETTE: Two of a Kind

I remember those days well. The ones just after I was injured, when it was all so new and traumatic. I remember each time a doctor or a nurse or my parents delivered another piece of bad news, which seemed to be the only kind I ever got around that time. That I was going to be paralyzed from my shoulders down for the rest of my life. That I’d never be able to live independently. That I’d be incontinent. That I might never have kids (though, at fourteen, that wasn’t exactly my biggest concern).

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 40

Hello my friends, oh my, I can't believe it is Wednesday again and I am posting Chapter 40 of TAC.
I know I want Jesse to be happy and maybe that time has come. Shawn is happy with Trish and they meet with the lawyer again to find out some more details about the case. So, I hope you guys will enjoy this week's chapter and I thank you for your comments and for your time and loyalty. Yours thankfully, Dani

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

In/Exhale Continues

I want to give a huge thank you for those of you who took the time to leave such wonderful comments last week. It really means so much for me to know that you guys are enjoying my story so much and also getting something from it as well. :)

This week focuses on Kai and David, each in their own adventures, so fans of Renee and Jon will be disappointed. Sorry! But there will be plenty of everyone in the next couple days, so don't worry. :)

Just a little reminder again: Everything that David experiences in this episode is inspired by real events that happened to various Deaf people I've encountered.

Part of the reason I wanted to write this part of David's life is because not only is it a crucial element of his story, but also is something that I think a lot of hearing people are completely oblivious to.

Previously on In/Exhale: Jon rushed to the hospital to try to prevent CPS from taking Harriet's child, but in the process backed out on his promised swim date with Kai, causing a huge fight. Kai swam away his anger all morning and missed his session with Dr. Miller, but he did run into Steve and the promise of a new friendship. Kai then dropped by Martin's house to hang out and watch movies, a way of cheering up a lonely, sick kid Kai can commiserate with. Jon and Vicky found out they're having a son.

This Week on In/Exhale: Thursday continues and Kai ends up revealing a lot more to Martin about his life pre-transplant than he ever anticipated. Meanwhile, David has an important job interview that he handles well despite an unexpected complication.

Next Week on In/Exhale: We finish Thursday, in which Kai ends up finally talking about what the transplant was like before and after. Vicky talks to her sister Roni for advice and consolation. And Jon drops by to console Vicky in a whole other way.

Enjoy:

February 1, 2001 - Part II


I've updated the Table of Contents, as always.

-CA

Monday, September 28, 2015

New Story! Chianti Classico

Hi everyone! So, new story. Hope you like this one. It even comes in several parts!
Thanks for reviewing and enjoy!

Chianti Classico - Part I

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Footsteps Chapter Ten (Part II)

Hello! Thanks as ever for your feedback on the last one. I'm really happy you liked it. *sits at desk doing a little happy dance*

This chapter is more of a bonus or part ii than an individual chapter, and it's also a bribe/peace offering because I think I'm going to have to take a bit of a break, because I'm moving out of my apartment, plus I'm starting a masters degree and term is about to begin next week.

I'll try and update as soon as I can, but it won't be for a couple of weeks I think. If I do manage to put anything up sooner, that'll be a surprise, right?

Thank you so so much for your support of my little love story - it means the world that you actively comment and enjoy it so much. Readers, you're the best.

Take care,
Rose

Oh yeah, here it is. I should warn you, it's a bit steamy, so those who begged me not to skip to the morning, your wishes were heard and obeyed. Let me know what you think of it, because there's a bit of a reveal in there too, which had a very very special place in my heart.

For anyone wanting to recap: Chapter Ten (Part I) 


(updated)

Friday, September 25, 2015

Skin and Scars Chapter 8

Hello everyone! It's Friday. Which pretty much means Updateday! This chapter is on the short side, but what it lacks in word count, it makes up for in substance. Wishing everyone a lovely weekend and enjoy. : )

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Three's A Crowd Chapter 39

Hello friends, here is this week's installment of TAC Chapter 39.  Jesse and Shawn meet the lawyer who is going to handle Jesse's case and Trish and Shawn share some loving moments again. Thanks everyone for reading and commenting, I am so happy you like the story. Hugs, Dani

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

In/Exhale Continues

Thank you guys once again for your comments. It's nice to know I have a small, but loyal group of readers who enjoy my crazy little saga. :)

This week is the first part of a three-part day that largely focuses on Jon, Kai, and David and has some events that step up for things that will happen a bit later in the season. But don't worry. Renee returns big time for the following day (February 2), when things begin to come to a head for our two lovebirds.

Previously on In/Exhale: Kai tells Renee about his hearing loss. Jon comforts Kai when he wakes up confused at Vicky's house, then consoles him over pie. Last season, while waiting to see Dr. Johnsen, Kai runs into a young patient of Jon's and offers to answer any questions the kid might have about living with FS.

This week on In/Exhale: Jon makes a decision that affects his relationship with Kai. Kai and Steve spend some time together. Vicky has her mid-pregnancy ultrasound and she and Jon learn the sex of their baby. Kai visits a beloved character from last season.

Next week on In/Exhale: David goes for an important job interview, but an unexpected complication arises that throws a wrench in his plans. Kai reveals things about his past that he normally never talks about.

February 1, 2001 - Part I


I've updated the Table of Contents, as always. If you'd like to refresh your memory on the two episodes in which we see the character who makes a reappearance at the end of this episode, you can check them out here: October 31, 2000 - Part II, November 2, 2000.

Oh, and I just wanted to add that the events that happen at the beginning of this episode are inspired by real experiences I've heard from the Deaf community. I know a lot of you are always asking about how much of I/E is based on reality and how much is totally fiction. :)

Thanks again and I'll see you next week!

-CA

Saturday, September 19, 2015

Footsteps - Chapter Ten is up!

Wow, what a great load of comments I had for the last chapter! So first things first... *THANK YOU*! Very glad you liked it.

We've also had a run of amazing updates on the blog, which has given me a) something great to read and b) more time to update this chapter, so it's... (wait for it)... *even longer than the last one* (sniggers). I apologise, it must be because of the content of Chapter Ten...

Here it is for you to enjoy (crosses fingers). As ever, please keep letting me know what you like (and don't like) about it. Your comments and opinions are kind of like the fertiliser that makes our stories grow!!

Chapter Ten
in which we meet Luke, and Caleb and Alyssa get a bit closer...


Many thanks, take care,
Rose


Friday, September 18, 2015

Skin and Scars Chapter 7

Yes. It's been a month since I last posted. *hangs head* And I am very, truly, and positively sorry for that. A few shake ups in my world, but all is well now, and I'm back on schedule. Please forgive me for the delay, dear readers.

Here is chapter 7 in Aaron and Julia's world. Thank you for your patience.


Thursday, September 17, 2015

Ristretto Chapter 2

Hey Everyone! I want to thank you all for the awesome comments on my first post!! I'm incredibly excited and happy that it seems as though my Deaf wheeler has some fans. I'm also sorry its taken ages for me to post a second chapter. My life is insanely busy, but I will post as often as I can. As I continue, this story should be pretty interesting [read: weird]. I also want to thank Chie. She's incredibly kind and has helped me tweak my story here and there. She is our resident expert on the Deaf community after all! 

A note on how I write ASL... As we've learned through Chie, ASL is not simply signed English and therefore the language must be interpreted. I've chosen to write ASL as I would interpret the meaning behind each's character's signs. I typically put ASL in italics and things spoken but not signed, are not italicized. 

Lastly, if you're in NYC there is a revival of Spring Awakening fully in ASL as well as in English, with Deaf cast members and a girl wheeler. I saw it last week and was moved to tears. It was beautiful.

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoy, please let me know what you think. <3 Yuki

Basically, at the very bottom of life, which seduces us all, there is only absurdity, and more absurdity. And maybe that's what gives us our joy for living, because the only thing that can defeat absurdity is lucidity. - Albert Camus